Everyone Has Some Chains To Break
I just want you to know that you are my best friend. You always will be I want you to know how much of an impact you've made on my life. I want you to know how much it is going to suck for me to see you with someone else. Just like it sucks now for you. I remember when you were my world. You may not be the center of it anymore.... but you are the biggest part of it. To be honest I think my mom has always been the center of my world. But... you know what I mean. I should be studying right now. But, all I can think about is you. How much your stomach has to feel like concrete all the time b/c you have to think about me with him. I want you to find someone else so that I can be in as much pain as you. So eventually we can both get used to it and be okay again. I wanted to let you know that Mikey is trying so hard to be good to me. He's balancing my brother and me. It's hard for both of us and I know at some points i'm going to want to kill my brother more than ever. But, either way. He just couldn't stop crying knowing that he fucked up so quickly.... I know it's mostly my fault I'm the one that let him drink. Whether or not he will except that. I should've known but i get that he should've too. idk. Everything is just getting so different so fast. And I hate my hair... I hate the lady that did my hair i might kill her the next time I go to walmart. just a lot of shit. But.... shane you are helping me now more than ever. I just want to skip the hard parts... but we can't.... but i know it will get better. And I know you know it will too.
<3 you so much. More than you know. For letting me go. For letting me have you when you did. For everything.