Dream on....
So... I had this dream last night. It was after my real 18th birthday. All my friends and my mom were there. I had just gotten back into a relationship with shane. We stopped at this weird gas station. A blonde in short shorts and a tight tanktop parked next to me. I was nice to her. She went in and flirted with shane. I was kinda mad. I went inside and hugged him. He had a boner... I gave him a face. I walked away to look at something and this blonde tried to kiss him. He didn't stop her. She walked outside and sat on the back of her car. I went outside and told her "I try to be nice to everyone. I try to be nice to girls that look like you. But, truth is you're all sluts." My mom was right there... she scolded me. I walked off to talk to my friends. I noticed that shane wasn't there. So i went back into the gas station... some friends left inside told me they saw shane go into the bathroom. Well, I opened the door... i saw his legs with his pants around his ankles and her legs... naked... he shorts were on the floor. he was sitting on the toilet seat... she was about to give him head... I opened the stall door... she backed away. The look of pain, horror, and mistake on his face I will never forget... what I won't forget even more is how much I would not be able to forgive him. I woke up shaking and very angry this morning. I sat in my bed for an hour until my alarm went off. I sat in my bed for an hour thinking of how I would kill them both. I realized this morning that I consider myself in a relationship with him... titled or not. I love him...and if he were to do anything with any girl... even now. My heart would be broken. I would consider it cheating. I love him so much. Pleasee... someone tell me he won't hurt me again.