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i'm so frustrated/sad/upset/lost...
how come everytime i try to do something nice it blows up in my face? i don't understand. maybe i'm just too generous er kind er w.e.... well what ever i am it's getting me no where, fast. i know that this all may sound a little cynical but for one day, i wish i could be someone else. just to see what it's like. I know that my life could be twenty times worse and everything and i'm very appreciative that i have all that i have in all honesty, but i want to see if i'm "normal" or if i have it "easy" or even "hard" compared to someone else. i think it might be interesting. i dunno, maybe.
so bamboozled is in like 2 er3 days and i'm not as pumped as i was when it was like 6 months away. maybe it just hasn't sunken in yet.
so track today sucked. i froze my ass off but i did semi-okay in shot today even tho the guy measuring fucked everything up and i SO had a 26 at least! Good job goes out to Alyssa tho 'cause she placed first today!!! i <3 her way mucho.
lini b and i watched "what's eating gilbert grape" tonight 'cause johnny depp is amazing. t'was a fun time.
how come everytime i try to do something nice it blows up in my face? i don't understand. maybe i'm just too generous er kind er w.e.... well what ever i am it's getting me no where, fast. i know that this all may sound a little cynical but for one day, i wish i could be someone else. just to see what it's like. I know that my life could be twenty times worse and everything and i'm very appreciative that i have all that i have in all honesty, but i want to see if i'm "normal" or if i have it "easy" or even "hard" compared to someone else. i think it might be interesting. i dunno, maybe.
so bamboozled is in like 2 er3 days and i'm not as pumped as i was when it was like 6 months away. maybe it just hasn't sunken in yet.
so track today sucked. i froze my ass off but i did semi-okay in shot today even tho the guy measuring fucked everything up and i SO had a 26 at least! Good job goes out to Alyssa tho 'cause she placed first today!!! i <3 her way mucho.
lini b and i watched "what's eating gilbert grape" tonight 'cause johnny depp is amazing. t'was a fun time.