on school, music, and drinking. the song, that is.
so today was pretty good, i believe. let's think back... i dont remember most of it, lol. started off with history, and got my work done for once!! and i sat by nicole striegl, my neighbor, and we bonded while we worked. i think im getting really productive this semester so far. im already doing like 100x more stuff for school than i have done all high school, so im proud of myself. =)
so i finished that packet, did most of the terms that i have to finish sometime soon, and got my book. and yaay its not beat up like last semester's! whoo!! i like the way nemechek has so far just told us what to do and let us loose. it helps me get stuff done. + we have reading block, so i am able to get practically everything done.
moving on to concert choir. had a lunch, so i went off with andrew, katy, and lisa to sonic and got that chicken club toaster thing. had a pretty good time. andrew, you're driving glasses are flipping hilarious. lmao.
then we got back to class and sang battle of jericho, which is KILLING me cuz some of it is flipping high for me, but the rest of it i OWN at. so im actually proud of myself cuz im finally able to hit all these pitches really easily. part of that comes from clarinet playing, but alot of it has grown and intensified through singing for a few months. so i was really excited to hear the improvement. whoo!
after jericho, we sang water night. im in love with that song, i swear. i also owned at that with the timmy. 2nd tenor rules on that song, and we were almost to the best part of the whole song when nozot stopped us. lol!! at least we have something to look forward to for thursday. so far im really loving concert choir this semester cuz of the music and the fact that we're actually getting something done.
biology was next. that was kinda cool i think. yeah it was actually, lol. i took notes for the first time all year *gasp* and then we did practically all of our lab. and im sitting at a table with britneh beasley!! whoa. and we got stuff done? who can believe that?! i cant, lol *is still in shock* but that was fun. we applauded mr summers when he finished his mini-lesson, lol. poor guy, you could tell he was really nervous, and the fact that he had a defective projector didnt help. but he's cool and nice, so thats fun.
after that was eagleaires.
kay.
umm.
*awkward*
well it was kinda cool, actually. pierce brought up the whole clique thing and how seniors shut out everyone else pretty much, and how they exclude underclassmen and such. so then we talked about that, and nozot was like how do you underclassmen feel? and stephanie was our official spokesperson, haha, but she pretty much communicated the truth: that they exclude us in everything. and the unspoken part of it was that they exclude us in everything all.the.time. but then i agreed and was like yeah, i came in completely terrified (and then everyone was like 'awwww' no joke *blush*) and felt excluded and invisible for the longest time. most of you probably remember that from reading my journal for awhile, so yeah... then we were talking more about how it was stupid and how we shouldnt do it.
so then we bonded by talking for awhile. only it was supposed to be bonding, but the first 10 mins of it was ppl mixed up and shouting across the room to ppl they knew. so yeah that didnt accomplish anything for awhile. but eventually we got talking and jeff revealed he has a yu-gi-oh fettish, megan admitted to not being able to fall asleep unless her sheets were perfect, tricia loves slime, brett has big feet, and i still like pokemon video games. so we bonded. lol.
i guess for me that whole exclusion thing existed for most of first semester, with the exception of andrew and becky sometimes. then the rest of the juniors realized i existed (lol) so that made eagleaires a lot easier. but it was a really hard semester... i mean i went in knowing 2 ppl, and those 2 ppl werent always right there with me. thats not a problem or anything, but i was still alone for alot of it last semester. this semester is already a ton easier cuz of ppl like steph and em and jon, and megan when her voice is there. but i think i got hit with the exclusion thing the hardest this year, but its better.
i dont think the senior clique will ever go away, but i think some of them will do a better job of it. i know jeff is talking to me and andrew more now that nathan isnt there, so thats amusing. + today i started talking to tricia more, so that was fun. but i think the rest of them will still seem kinda standoffish.
gaah. i really love to sing, and it sounds weird, but i really want to get into voice lessons. but the only voice teacher i would ever consider getting lessons from is keri, whom i love with all of my heart, but i dont think im anything really when it comes to singing. wow this might turn into even more of a rantfest, so be forewarned. should've said that like 10 paragraphs ago, ha. anyways, i just dont think im really any good at singing. i know, omg, i know im in eagleaires. but im still not confident in it.
see, when im in something, i have this unconsious passion to be amazing at it. thats why i kept cutting because my grades were low, because i wasnt amazing anymore. thats why i kept cutting after all sorts of defeats, like 2nd chair and not getting DM and all sortsa other stuff, because i wasnt amazing or the best. its very strange, but yeah, its mostly behind me.
but back on topic: i want to get into voice lessons so i can sound good, according to me. but yeah, its weird, cuz ppl are good without being in voice lessons. look at eagleaires minus pierce, steph, and andrew. i just feel like i SHOULD get into lessons so i can improve myself, for myself, and eventually for my ensembles. its like i've been brainwashed by cruse to a certain extent, lol. but really, thats how i feel.
i just dont have enough hours in the week. i also dont think my parents would want to fork over any money for voice lessons. and i think it would be better maybe to get guitar lessons, cuz i mean, i can sing, just not up to the level that i want to. with guitar, i have absolutely no skill at all. i mean, sure, i can get scotty to teach me. wait... why do i need lessons, then? i can just get scotty to teach me.
okay strike that paragraph out. keep the first two sentences valid, though.
i COULD talk to my parents, but i dont know if its worth it.
gah. just kinda confused right now about what to do and about what i want to do, like with my self and with my future and stuff. like this isnt just about taking voice lessons; it ties into a lot of other things that i wont get into just to keep from writing a novel, but its more than just skin-deep.
sorry if this bored you; had to get it out, tho, lol.
so now you know.
will post later.
oh yeah: then we sang the drinking song, and after that i went to work, had a decent time cuz the phone was ringing (weekday), and then i came home, and did my spanish homework. see? there's the whole studious thing kicking in. yaay.
so i finished that packet, did most of the terms that i have to finish sometime soon, and got my book. and yaay its not beat up like last semester's! whoo!! i like the way nemechek has so far just told us what to do and let us loose. it helps me get stuff done. + we have reading block, so i am able to get practically everything done.
moving on to concert choir. had a lunch, so i went off with andrew, katy, and lisa to sonic and got that chicken club toaster thing. had a pretty good time. andrew, you're driving glasses are flipping hilarious. lmao.
then we got back to class and sang battle of jericho, which is KILLING me cuz some of it is flipping high for me, but the rest of it i OWN at. so im actually proud of myself cuz im finally able to hit all these pitches really easily. part of that comes from clarinet playing, but alot of it has grown and intensified through singing for a few months. so i was really excited to hear the improvement. whoo!
after jericho, we sang water night. im in love with that song, i swear. i also owned at that with the timmy. 2nd tenor rules on that song, and we were almost to the best part of the whole song when nozot stopped us. lol!! at least we have something to look forward to for thursday. so far im really loving concert choir this semester cuz of the music and the fact that we're actually getting something done.
biology was next. that was kinda cool i think. yeah it was actually, lol. i took notes for the first time all year *gasp* and then we did practically all of our lab. and im sitting at a table with britneh beasley!! whoa. and we got stuff done? who can believe that?! i cant, lol *is still in shock* but that was fun. we applauded mr summers when he finished his mini-lesson, lol. poor guy, you could tell he was really nervous, and the fact that he had a defective projector didnt help. but he's cool and nice, so thats fun.
after that was eagleaires.
kay.
umm.
*awkward*
well it was kinda cool, actually. pierce brought up the whole clique thing and how seniors shut out everyone else pretty much, and how they exclude underclassmen and such. so then we talked about that, and nozot was like how do you underclassmen feel? and stephanie was our official spokesperson, haha, but she pretty much communicated the truth: that they exclude us in everything. and the unspoken part of it was that they exclude us in everything all.the.time. but then i agreed and was like yeah, i came in completely terrified (and then everyone was like 'awwww' no joke *blush*) and felt excluded and invisible for the longest time. most of you probably remember that from reading my journal for awhile, so yeah... then we were talking more about how it was stupid and how we shouldnt do it.
so then we bonded by talking for awhile. only it was supposed to be bonding, but the first 10 mins of it was ppl mixed up and shouting across the room to ppl they knew. so yeah that didnt accomplish anything for awhile. but eventually we got talking and jeff revealed he has a yu-gi-oh fettish, megan admitted to not being able to fall asleep unless her sheets were perfect, tricia loves slime, brett has big feet, and i still like pokemon video games. so we bonded. lol.
i guess for me that whole exclusion thing existed for most of first semester, with the exception of andrew and becky sometimes. then the rest of the juniors realized i existed (lol) so that made eagleaires a lot easier. but it was a really hard semester... i mean i went in knowing 2 ppl, and those 2 ppl werent always right there with me. thats not a problem or anything, but i was still alone for alot of it last semester. this semester is already a ton easier cuz of ppl like steph and em and jon, and megan when her voice is there. but i think i got hit with the exclusion thing the hardest this year, but its better.
i dont think the senior clique will ever go away, but i think some of them will do a better job of it. i know jeff is talking to me and andrew more now that nathan isnt there, so thats amusing. + today i started talking to tricia more, so that was fun. but i think the rest of them will still seem kinda standoffish.
gaah. i really love to sing, and it sounds weird, but i really want to get into voice lessons. but the only voice teacher i would ever consider getting lessons from is keri, whom i love with all of my heart, but i dont think im anything really when it comes to singing. wow this might turn into even more of a rantfest, so be forewarned. should've said that like 10 paragraphs ago, ha. anyways, i just dont think im really any good at singing. i know, omg, i know im in eagleaires. but im still not confident in it.
see, when im in something, i have this unconsious passion to be amazing at it. thats why i kept cutting because my grades were low, because i wasnt amazing anymore. thats why i kept cutting after all sorts of defeats, like 2nd chair and not getting DM and all sortsa other stuff, because i wasnt amazing or the best. its very strange, but yeah, its mostly behind me.
but back on topic: i want to get into voice lessons so i can sound good, according to me. but yeah, its weird, cuz ppl are good without being in voice lessons. look at eagleaires minus pierce, steph, and andrew. i just feel like i SHOULD get into lessons so i can improve myself, for myself, and eventually for my ensembles. its like i've been brainwashed by cruse to a certain extent, lol. but really, thats how i feel.
i just dont have enough hours in the week. i also dont think my parents would want to fork over any money for voice lessons. and i think it would be better maybe to get guitar lessons, cuz i mean, i can sing, just not up to the level that i want to. with guitar, i have absolutely no skill at all. i mean, sure, i can get scotty to teach me. wait... why do i need lessons, then? i can just get scotty to teach me.
okay strike that paragraph out. keep the first two sentences valid, though.
i COULD talk to my parents, but i dont know if its worth it.
gah. just kinda confused right now about what to do and about what i want to do, like with my self and with my future and stuff. like this isnt just about taking voice lessons; it ties into a lot of other things that i wont get into just to keep from writing a novel, but its more than just skin-deep.
sorry if this bored you; had to get it out, tho, lol.
so now you know.
will post later.
oh yeah: then we sang the drinking song, and after that i went to work, had a decent time cuz the phone was ringing (weekday), and then i came home, and did my spanish homework. see? there's the whole studious thing kicking in. yaay.