Mmmm..
***Hidden Leaf***
OK maybe just a small Naruto reference, for all you narutards out there. Spoilers over.. yay. Anywho.. this is something I've been wanting to do for a while.. a LONG time ago I wrote about my thought tree, and I think it's time to release some pent up frustration on a better form for me to understand than anything. Branches and leaves of emotions, memories and experiences. Before I go there, I just needed to do this.. TARA YAP. haha there you go, I dropped your name.. vain much? heh
Secrets are an interesting thing, we have so many that we try hide from the world and those close to us. You don't want people to know your secrets, but if they do you don't want to know that they know right? Cuz some of the things you hold are embarrassing, perhaps not to yourself but maybe on behalf of others. There's the guilt of knowing a secret and then letting it slip, so we want to remain ignorant of the fact that the secret has been spilled. Sometime we have secrets for a good reason, but who's to judge what's right or wrong.. which brings us to lying. Some people lie to keep a secret. Lie because we went somewhere we weren't supposed to with people we weren't supposed to be seeing perhaps.. little white lies, what are those anyways? Lies that protect other people or lies that are self serving, justfied by.. by what exactly? Our little misconception of what 'self preservation' is? Do these little white lies protect ourselves in the sense that our secret would destroy us? Emotionally? Socially? Economically? So what justfies the lies, who are we really protecting? What justfies keeping a secret.. I know that this is a strange time to be thinking of this too.. but what if one day we die and all the secrets we had go with us.. the things we've wanted to say or do that we couldn't in life. Does that carry on in our next life? Do ghosts exists as a remenant of a soul attempting to continue it's will beyond the grave? Western and Eastern ghosts are quite different, but there is an undercurrent of strong emotions remaining such as hatred, vengeance, longing.. when one doesn't have closure on something so big that we have to linger on; without a body and in some ethreal form. A ghost of a whisper, interesting saying.. whispering is always creepy in scary movies.. the dead tell us things that sometimes we don't want to hear. What are somethings that we don't want to hear? Judgements on us that are negative? Things that would force us to emote a negative emotion.. pain and suffering is what makes us human right? Animals suffer loss as we do, sometimes crying, sometimes going into fits of anger.. does that mean pain and suffering doesnt really define us as humans? It happens in the natural world without anyone doing anything. People.. what defines us is our destructive nature. We create things to destroy.. we destroy our environment, we destroy religions, culture, other races.. we destroy ourselves. We find ways to bring quicker death to everything around us, people, relationships, emotions.. our bodies. Wars are forever going on.. people killing each other, such short lived lives made even shorter.. bullet to the head, knife to the throat. Fragile we humans are.. cockroaches as explained on Heroes are so powerful on the great scheme of things. Evolution-wise I think we'll probably stop. Can't get over great distances quickly? We build a car. Can't get over expanses of ocean? We build a boat. Our creativity makes us weak doesn't it. A lot of Asian countries treat minor symptoms of sickness with drugs. Got a cough, have some drugs.. and so a lot of Asians are sickly little beings. One, they're over drugged and it does nothing for them and two, the viruses are growing immune. Immunity through exposure.. I guess there are somethings you can't expose yourself to long enough to grow immunity.. or is there? If you cut yourself often enough, your skin will harden.. It's how calluses work right? There are cases of ancient rulers taking small controlled traces of arsenic so they can't be poisoned, by working up an immunity. We have to expose ourselves to things in small quantity. Through weakness, we build strength. OK, tree stop.
Another thing about secrets that came up during a convo with Wynne was secrets belonging to someone. I guess what defines us as.. an individual are not our capabilities or thought processes.. sure we can think a certain way that's different from people, but if that way is known by everyone, then it's not really all that special right? It's like a sports reporter asking a pro-athelete what their secret is to being so successful. They'll tell you, eat well and exercise often and practice. Sure, but why? What drives you as a motivator? Why do you do the things you do? What makes you happy? Right.. these little things that we hold dear to ourselves defines us as who we really are. Our beliefs and dreams that never in our lifetimes can we ever really convey to other peoples. At a risk of misunderstanding.. or even cheapening that thought, we hang on to these important things in our lives.
***Uni SOOON***
So it's that time of year again.. leading into my 5th and second last year, I don't know whether I'm looking forward to starting up again or not. Not that the holidays were as constructive as I had hopped. There are a few things I still haven't done.. that I was sorta looking at doing over the hols. I wanted to do more PS.. after Wynne made me draw I was semi-interested again and having recently read Denise's aspirations towards a certain artist style, to which I must add I reckon she has reached, I feel inspired. Maybe I'll be able to take that up properly during lectures.. *shrugs* I got around to doing some Air Gear emblems, that's something right? hehe AT on the brain. I had also wanted to sub over the holidays.. I guess I did go through 2 concerts (finished up the missing 2005 Captain Matsuura Aya Kouen and then doing 2006 Summer - Wonderful Hearts Land), but I still have 2004 Summer - Natsu no Doon sitting on my comp, not entirely my fault that it's not done because Mink's site has been going up and down like Paris with a video camera. Another entirely banal thing I wanted to do with rename my entire MP3 library so I can find albums easier, hence making burning stuff for people easier. That's halfway done, and even with the weird OCD periods I go through, it's not enough to make me sit there and rename EVERYTHING.. Maybe I'll get it done after this.
Happy Chinese New year everyone, hope all is well with family and health and all that. Hope you all got lotsa money too I guess.. that's just a thing to say. I sorta don't really care? lol Happy Birthday shoutout to Jes you Canberra-living idiot who always insists on catching up when she's back in Melb but never does. *hmph*! hahaha OK I'm running outta things to type..
The last few days have been pretty crazy.. guess it's that last desparate push to get as much outta my holidays as I can before uni starts? I dunno.. either way I feel quite run down and here's why..
Tuesday was the beginning of O-week. Went in bright and early (8am - how unholy) to collect balloons and wait for our kiddies. Most (?) made it, though one was late. Generally the group was pretty good, Tyap and I gave them a whirlwind tour of uni and finished with them by about 1ish? Something like that.. some of them were a bit too cool to hang with us so left after a while, but they were generally pretty well behaved and relatively enthusiastic. After lunch we headed off to the cool sanctuary of ICT to wait until we could collect our REWARD!! hahaha when we went upstairs, who did we find? Margaret, Corrinne and Sam with a bunch of our kids!! lol what the?! Random.. supposedly they hid there from the heat (and skipped the Dean's welcome). haha either way, we just sat around and looked at timetables online and talked about uni. Good times good times.. lol where's my voucher!! jk, it was good to burn time just relaxing in the aircon, entertained by Margaret's "work stories" hahaha brilliant stuff!!
Tyap is such a poser
Thursday and Friday I was pretty much preparing for my lil dinner thing. Thankyou for all those who could make it and thankyou all who replied at least.. *sigh* so stressful when people start turning up randomly, at least no one cancelled. Either way, I hope everyone had as much fun as I did and that the food was enjoyed. It was ALL experimental and I hadn't cooked any of this before. For those who missed out, it turned out to be a 6 "course" meal. Beginning with appetizers from Asia, I had San Choi Bao from my part of town ;) and sushi (which I bought) from Japan (if only I could have written "which I bought from Japan" in one bracket). I followed up with a light Thai Beef Salad, which lead into the two mains. A classic Italian basil (pesto) based seafood penne with mussels, pipis and prawns and an eclectic mix of apple, corn, tomato and chicken wrapped in a tortilla, baked with cheese in the form of Mexican quesadillas. Moving up to the border, I finished off with a lime and orange American cheesecake. Then we went to see Rocky.. ahh.. brilliant inspiration.
Thousand worded pictures?
Saturday was CRAZY. I volunteered for MUOSS's Amazing Race. Basically we had to follow the first year international students around whilst they ran to checkpoints. When I say run.. I mean RUN. Seriously, I gym 3-4 times a week, I cardio for about 30min each session.. these kids are FIT! >__< Had to follow them and make sure they didn't end up in Frankston or Epping or something.. luckily for me, I had a group of Trinity College students, so they've been here for a year already. This also meant they were confident.. add to the fact they were EASILY the most energetic and loudest group out of all (no exaggeration - at roll call at the end of the day they were still just as loud as at the beginning, biggest cheer when our group was called >__<). They pretty much didn't stop unless we were on a tram or train, which wasn't often and even then we'd get get off and hit the ground running. We got told off for running through the Chinatown mall walkthrough outside Target. Here's some pics of the activities they did... haha it was really fun. Twas a great day and I wanna thank my awesome group for such a great time. haha they're all pretty funny and friendly, which is good. I heard a few groups had some withdrawn people, and a few that didn't have people who could run. I came home, had a shower, and passed out on the couch till 8.30 when my bro called to get picked up. Didn't even eat dinner I was so tired.. hahaha >__<
Memories from the day
A great way to lead into uni I think, looking forward to all the new people and stuff.
Here's my timetable
Student ID:187232 Last Name:Derrick First Name:
Eric Robert
Subjects:
306301Financial Accounting306302Enterprise Performance Management615372Project Management732103Principles of Business Law
Time
Mon
Tue
Wed
Thu
Fri
8 am
9 am
Financial 301
Architecture-Prince Philip
Lecture
10 am
EnterpPerf 302
Babel Middle Theatre
Tutorial
Project Mg 372
ICT-135
Workshop
Financial 301
Architecture-Prince Philip
Lecture
Financial 301
Doug McDonell-Denis Driscoll Theatre
Tutorial
11 am
EnterpPerf 302
Babel Middle Theatre
Tutorial
Princip.Bu 103
Th:Law-GM15 Theatre
Lecture
Princip.Bu 103
Law: 317 Comp Lab
Tutorial
12 pm
EnterpPerf 302
Babel Middle Theatre
Tutorial
Princip.Bu 103
Th:Law-GM15 Theatre
Lecture
1 pm
2 pm
Project Mg 372
Th:221 Bouverie St-Theatre 1
Lecture
Project Mg 372
Th:221 Bouverie St-Theatre 1
Lecture
3 pm
4 pm
5 pm
I'll see you all around.. sometime.. lol
***Promises Postponed!***
I know I said I'd do some reviews, but I don't have time, need to sleep and really wanna get this LJ outta the way. I'll put down what I'm gonna review and hopefully that'll be motivation to actually review it.
Cinema Movies: Stranger Than Fiction, Ghost Rider, Rocky Balboa
Music: C-ute, DBSK, Kaela Kimura, Perfume, Ring, Antique Cafe (An Cafe), Baby VOX Re.V, Guilty Gear XX OST, Gwen Stefani, Loveholic
Maybe Reminisce: Cherry Filter, Lee Jung Hyun, Hikaru Utada,
OK maybe just a small Naruto reference, for all you narutards out there. Spoilers over.. yay. Anywho.. this is something I've been wanting to do for a while.. a LONG time ago I wrote about my thought tree, and I think it's time to release some pent up frustration on a better form for me to understand than anything. Branches and leaves of emotions, memories and experiences. Before I go there, I just needed to do this.. TARA YAP. haha there you go, I dropped your name.. vain much? heh
Secrets are an interesting thing, we have so many that we try hide from the world and those close to us. You don't want people to know your secrets, but if they do you don't want to know that they know right? Cuz some of the things you hold are embarrassing, perhaps not to yourself but maybe on behalf of others. There's the guilt of knowing a secret and then letting it slip, so we want to remain ignorant of the fact that the secret has been spilled. Sometime we have secrets for a good reason, but who's to judge what's right or wrong.. which brings us to lying. Some people lie to keep a secret. Lie because we went somewhere we weren't supposed to with people we weren't supposed to be seeing perhaps.. little white lies, what are those anyways? Lies that protect other people or lies that are self serving, justfied by.. by what exactly? Our little misconception of what 'self preservation' is? Do these little white lies protect ourselves in the sense that our secret would destroy us? Emotionally? Socially? Economically? So what justfies the lies, who are we really protecting? What justfies keeping a secret.. I know that this is a strange time to be thinking of this too.. but what if one day we die and all the secrets we had go with us.. the things we've wanted to say or do that we couldn't in life. Does that carry on in our next life? Do ghosts exists as a remenant of a soul attempting to continue it's will beyond the grave? Western and Eastern ghosts are quite different, but there is an undercurrent of strong emotions remaining such as hatred, vengeance, longing.. when one doesn't have closure on something so big that we have to linger on; without a body and in some ethreal form. A ghost of a whisper, interesting saying.. whispering is always creepy in scary movies.. the dead tell us things that sometimes we don't want to hear. What are somethings that we don't want to hear? Judgements on us that are negative? Things that would force us to emote a negative emotion.. pain and suffering is what makes us human right? Animals suffer loss as we do, sometimes crying, sometimes going into fits of anger.. does that mean pain and suffering doesnt really define us as humans? It happens in the natural world without anyone doing anything. People.. what defines us is our destructive nature. We create things to destroy.. we destroy our environment, we destroy religions, culture, other races.. we destroy ourselves. We find ways to bring quicker death to everything around us, people, relationships, emotions.. our bodies. Wars are forever going on.. people killing each other, such short lived lives made even shorter.. bullet to the head, knife to the throat. Fragile we humans are.. cockroaches as explained on Heroes are so powerful on the great scheme of things. Evolution-wise I think we'll probably stop. Can't get over great distances quickly? We build a car. Can't get over expanses of ocean? We build a boat. Our creativity makes us weak doesn't it. A lot of Asian countries treat minor symptoms of sickness with drugs. Got a cough, have some drugs.. and so a lot of Asians are sickly little beings. One, they're over drugged and it does nothing for them and two, the viruses are growing immune. Immunity through exposure.. I guess there are somethings you can't expose yourself to long enough to grow immunity.. or is there? If you cut yourself often enough, your skin will harden.. It's how calluses work right? There are cases of ancient rulers taking small controlled traces of arsenic so they can't be poisoned, by working up an immunity. We have to expose ourselves to things in small quantity. Through weakness, we build strength. OK, tree stop.
Another thing about secrets that came up during a convo with Wynne was secrets belonging to someone. I guess what defines us as.. an individual are not our capabilities or thought processes.. sure we can think a certain way that's different from people, but if that way is known by everyone, then it's not really all that special right? It's like a sports reporter asking a pro-athelete what their secret is to being so successful. They'll tell you, eat well and exercise often and practice. Sure, but why? What drives you as a motivator? Why do you do the things you do? What makes you happy? Right.. these little things that we hold dear to ourselves defines us as who we really are. Our beliefs and dreams that never in our lifetimes can we ever really convey to other peoples. At a risk of misunderstanding.. or even cheapening that thought, we hang on to these important things in our lives.
***Uni SOOON***
So it's that time of year again.. leading into my 5th and second last year, I don't know whether I'm looking forward to starting up again or not. Not that the holidays were as constructive as I had hopped. There are a few things I still haven't done.. that I was sorta looking at doing over the hols. I wanted to do more PS.. after Wynne made me draw I was semi-interested again and having recently read Denise's aspirations towards a certain artist style, to which I must add I reckon she has reached, I feel inspired. Maybe I'll be able to take that up properly during lectures.. *shrugs* I got around to doing some Air Gear emblems, that's something right? hehe AT on the brain. I had also wanted to sub over the holidays.. I guess I did go through 2 concerts (finished up the missing 2005 Captain Matsuura Aya Kouen and then doing 2006 Summer - Wonderful Hearts Land), but I still have 2004 Summer - Natsu no Doon sitting on my comp, not entirely my fault that it's not done because Mink's site has been going up and down like Paris with a video camera. Another entirely banal thing I wanted to do with rename my entire MP3 library so I can find albums easier, hence making burning stuff for people easier. That's halfway done, and even with the weird OCD periods I go through, it's not enough to make me sit there and rename EVERYTHING.. Maybe I'll get it done after this.
Happy Chinese New year everyone, hope all is well with family and health and all that. Hope you all got lotsa money too I guess.. that's just a thing to say. I sorta don't really care? lol Happy Birthday shoutout to Jes you Canberra-living idiot who always insists on catching up when she's back in Melb but never does. *hmph*! hahaha OK I'm running outta things to type..
The last few days have been pretty crazy.. guess it's that last desparate push to get as much outta my holidays as I can before uni starts? I dunno.. either way I feel quite run down and here's why..
Tuesday was the beginning of O-week. Went in bright and early (8am - how unholy) to collect balloons and wait for our kiddies. Most (?) made it, though one was late. Generally the group was pretty good, Tyap and I gave them a whirlwind tour of uni and finished with them by about 1ish? Something like that.. some of them were a bit too cool to hang with us so left after a while, but they were generally pretty well behaved and relatively enthusiastic. After lunch we headed off to the cool sanctuary of ICT to wait until we could collect our REWARD!! hahaha when we went upstairs, who did we find? Margaret, Corrinne and Sam with a bunch of our kids!! lol what the?! Random.. supposedly they hid there from the heat (and skipped the Dean's welcome). haha either way, we just sat around and looked at timetables online and talked about uni. Good times good times.. lol where's my voucher!! jk, it was good to burn time just relaxing in the aircon, entertained by Margaret's "work stories" hahaha brilliant stuff!!
Tyap is such a poser
Thursday and Friday I was pretty much preparing for my lil dinner thing. Thankyou for all those who could make it and thankyou all who replied at least.. *sigh* so stressful when people start turning up randomly, at least no one cancelled. Either way, I hope everyone had as much fun as I did and that the food was enjoyed. It was ALL experimental and I hadn't cooked any of this before. For those who missed out, it turned out to be a 6 "course" meal. Beginning with appetizers from Asia, I had San Choi Bao from my part of town ;) and sushi (which I bought) from Japan (if only I could have written "which I bought from Japan" in one bracket). I followed up with a light Thai Beef Salad, which lead into the two mains. A classic Italian basil (pesto) based seafood penne with mussels, pipis and prawns and an eclectic mix of apple, corn, tomato and chicken wrapped in a tortilla, baked with cheese in the form of Mexican quesadillas. Moving up to the border, I finished off with a lime and orange American cheesecake. Then we went to see Rocky.. ahh.. brilliant inspiration.
Thousand worded pictures?
Saturday was CRAZY. I volunteered for MUOSS's Amazing Race. Basically we had to follow the first year international students around whilst they ran to checkpoints. When I say run.. I mean RUN. Seriously, I gym 3-4 times a week, I cardio for about 30min each session.. these kids are FIT! >__< Had to follow them and make sure they didn't end up in Frankston or Epping or something.. luckily for me, I had a group of Trinity College students, so they've been here for a year already. This also meant they were confident.. add to the fact they were EASILY the most energetic and loudest group out of all (no exaggeration - at roll call at the end of the day they were still just as loud as at the beginning, biggest cheer when our group was called >__<). They pretty much didn't stop unless we were on a tram or train, which wasn't often and even then we'd get get off and hit the ground running. We got told off for running through the Chinatown mall walkthrough outside Target. Here's some pics of the activities they did... haha it was really fun. Twas a great day and I wanna thank my awesome group for such a great time. haha they're all pretty funny and friendly, which is good. I heard a few groups had some withdrawn people, and a few that didn't have people who could run. I came home, had a shower, and passed out on the couch till 8.30 when my bro called to get picked up. Didn't even eat dinner I was so tired.. hahaha >__<
Memories from the day
A great way to lead into uni I think, looking forward to all the new people and stuff.
Here's my timetable
Student ID:187232 Last Name:Derrick First Name:
Eric Robert
Subjects:
306301Financial Accounting306302Enterprise Performance Management615372Project Management732103Principles of Business Law
Time
Mon
Tue
Wed
Thu
Fri
8 am
9 am
Financial 301
Architecture-Prince Philip
Lecture
10 am
EnterpPerf 302
Babel Middle Theatre
Tutorial
Project Mg 372
ICT-135
Workshop
Financial 301
Architecture-Prince Philip
Lecture
Financial 301
Doug McDonell-Denis Driscoll Theatre
Tutorial
11 am
EnterpPerf 302
Babel Middle Theatre
Tutorial
Princip.Bu 103
Th:Law-GM15 Theatre
Lecture
Princip.Bu 103
Law: 317 Comp Lab
Tutorial
12 pm
EnterpPerf 302
Babel Middle Theatre
Tutorial
Princip.Bu 103
Th:Law-GM15 Theatre
Lecture
1 pm
2 pm
Project Mg 372
Th:221 Bouverie St-Theatre 1
Lecture
Project Mg 372
Th:221 Bouverie St-Theatre 1
Lecture
3 pm
4 pm
5 pm
I'll see you all around.. sometime.. lol
***Promises Postponed!***
I know I said I'd do some reviews, but I don't have time, need to sleep and really wanna get this LJ outta the way. I'll put down what I'm gonna review and hopefully that'll be motivation to actually review it.
Cinema Movies: Stranger Than Fiction, Ghost Rider, Rocky Balboa
Music: C-ute, DBSK, Kaela Kimura, Perfume, Ring, Antique Cafe (An Cafe), Baby VOX Re.V, Guilty Gear XX OST, Gwen Stefani, Loveholic
Maybe Reminisce: Cherry Filter, Lee Jung Hyun, Hikaru Utada,