DOZO, mostly.
I get so moody when it's that time of month.
It's snowing in my world. If you piss me off I'll throw a snowball at you. :)
I was trying on funky hats in Burlington Coat Factory today. I was in my happy place. I love hats.
This is my upset, moody side of me speaking right now.
I can't help but think I did something wrong. Why the fuck aren't you talking to me? It's okay because in the end, I'm always forgiving and willing to give you another chance. Always.
Ya know I wasn't going to turn this into one of those rant lists, but I might as well. Everyone will be anonymous. You get a rainbow cake made by me if you figure out which one you are.
- It's really hard when someone has a lot of friends who are girls. You can't help but be a tad bit paranoid and curious about what's going on with them.
- Leslie, I can't keep up with you Dozo people. I used to be a little upset that I didn't go to that school; I would of been in the same friend group as you probably. There's too many of you to keep up with especially drama rama stuff. At the end of the day, I'm glad I didn't go because I love my group of friends very much and I'm blessed.
- However, the acquaintances I do have at Dozo I dunno I try my best to be nice and friendly but I feel everytime I do I don't get enough in return. I'd be kind on MySpace or on here commenting saying something nice and concerning like "how you've been?" etc. I'm just not feeling it back at me. I know some of the people that I know kind of grew apart but it's not fair to me that I get penalized for it. Dozopalooza, I waved at someone and I got a shitty look in return. Almost as if inside their mind they were like, "oh god there she is sitting next to...her."
- Life does go on, buddy.
- Sometimes I don't know why the fuck I bother. I never once saw them go out of their way to go on here or MySpace to comment me or something to see how I was and whatever. It's not even about getting comments to just get comments, but to get them for the sole purpose to see that you care about your little ole acquaintance.
- Haha then there's this other one whom I see around town sometimes. The strangest places mosty and it's always around a school or a college fair perhaps. HAHA you think I'd get a "hi raina" or at least a wave from this person. It's the LEAST they could of done. And I'm sick and tired of hearing, "oh it's because he's weird." "that's just _____ for ya." No, it goes beyond weirdness now, it's called being a rude dickhead. If that person saw me, especially at multiple places you'd think they say "hello" instead of telling my best friend that they saw me.
- Then there's all this other stuff. I don't really know them well, but I'm not sure I like it. I mean if you heard trash about me from a certain someone, then oh well, it's probably not even true because that person lies; a blatant liar dammit.
- Hm I hate girls so much. Why you gotta be so vindictive and mean? The way we fight is secretly. Especially through gossip and whatnot. Guys mostly fist fight or they verablly fight and then get over it and fart afterwards; it's all good in the hood. Why you gotta say lies though? You didn't think I would of found out? Funny how he's still friends with you even though you said stupid lies about me. I tried being nice to you, but you were a spiteful bitch in the end who deliberately made your move towards him. Another person, damn man..why you gotta flirt so much? In general flirting with anyone who is in a relationship is just wrong and bitchy. Find someone else, man. Let the friggin' couple breakup peacefully or differently without someone in the way like that.
- The phone; miles away talking on the phone. Especially during classtime, hmm.. funny because you never talked on the phone with me during that time. I mean I'm not a big fan of the phone sometimes, but still.
- It's not my fault I remind you of her. It's not my fault that that ordeal ocurred, why must I lose a friend in the process when I didn't even do anything? You never even gave me a chance. I respect your want for change now and I'm sorry for lecturing you about crap. I support your journey towards self recovery and self discovery; all the way.
- Sometimes I just feel liek saying to a few of them to just go away, somewhere and not exist ever.
- Lemme ask you something, have you ever been forbidden from meeting someone? HAHA Yup that's happened to me, rather this girl is forbidden from meeting me. It actually sucks because she seems nice and stuff. How could these two people say to this girl that she is forbidden from ever meeting me. WTF kind of crock is that? I'd expect it from that person, but not you!
- Just the whole environment of everything makes me queesy (sp?) sometimes. I get weird feelings at the pit of my stomach. I'm scared of being sad again like I was. I'm scared in general. If you want to try again, then we can try again. Please tell me how you feel, please.
Excuse me if I sound overdramatized and whatnot. I'm pissed off and upset. However, this is my journal and I'm nice enough to not broadcast names all over to make them look evil or something. *cough* unlike someone I know who really loves humiliating me, for what reason, is fucking beyond me.
On the bright side, my happy side of me was excited about the Freire picnic. Today turned out nicely and I took like less than 5 pictures. I got my trophy for Lacrosse at the Sports Awards dinner. I sat with my mom for a little while. Then I sat with Nicole, Madeleine and Chrissy in the front while we ate and stuff. Tonight was my concert. We did better than the band *cough* hehe but it's the band's first year so their sitll beginners. Kudos! Tomorrow is Lance's concert inwhich I can't attend, sorry Lance Penis! I'll be there singing "Bohemian Rhapsody" in spirit, with you! <3 Thursday no school, going to work on my shirts probably, maybe. Gotta make Jenny's present. Etc...
Goddamn that rant...there's so much more I want to say but it's just stupid nonsense now. The stuff up there are just the things that have been on my mind most and I needed to get it off my chest. Dude, I don't even go to your school and I'm fedup! It seems like I have more stress there than my own damn school. Whatever if you don't like me as a friend or more than a friend then you're sadly missing out. I wish you the best of luck in life. I tried.
Adios,
Raina
P&L Forever.
PS- I wrote this at 1:20 am and it is now 2:11 am. *ahem* Oh yeah happy late 666. I wore my devil horns today briefly. It was funny. The end!
It's snowing in my world. If you piss me off I'll throw a snowball at you. :)
I was trying on funky hats in Burlington Coat Factory today. I was in my happy place. I love hats.
This is my upset, moody side of me speaking right now.
I can't help but think I did something wrong. Why the fuck aren't you talking to me? It's okay because in the end, I'm always forgiving and willing to give you another chance. Always.
Ya know I wasn't going to turn this into one of those rant lists, but I might as well. Everyone will be anonymous. You get a rainbow cake made by me if you figure out which one you are.
- It's really hard when someone has a lot of friends who are girls. You can't help but be a tad bit paranoid and curious about what's going on with them.
- Leslie, I can't keep up with you Dozo people. I used to be a little upset that I didn't go to that school; I would of been in the same friend group as you probably. There's too many of you to keep up with especially drama rama stuff. At the end of the day, I'm glad I didn't go because I love my group of friends very much and I'm blessed.
- However, the acquaintances I do have at Dozo I dunno I try my best to be nice and friendly but I feel everytime I do I don't get enough in return. I'd be kind on MySpace or on here commenting saying something nice and concerning like "how you've been?" etc. I'm just not feeling it back at me. I know some of the people that I know kind of grew apart but it's not fair to me that I get penalized for it. Dozopalooza, I waved at someone and I got a shitty look in return. Almost as if inside their mind they were like, "oh god there she is sitting next to...her."
- Life does go on, buddy.
- Sometimes I don't know why the fuck I bother. I never once saw them go out of their way to go on here or MySpace to comment me or something to see how I was and whatever. It's not even about getting comments to just get comments, but to get them for the sole purpose to see that you care about your little ole acquaintance.
- Haha then there's this other one whom I see around town sometimes. The strangest places mosty and it's always around a school or a college fair perhaps. HAHA you think I'd get a "hi raina" or at least a wave from this person. It's the LEAST they could of done. And I'm sick and tired of hearing, "oh it's because he's weird." "that's just _____ for ya." No, it goes beyond weirdness now, it's called being a rude dickhead. If that person saw me, especially at multiple places you'd think they say "hello" instead of telling my best friend that they saw me.
- Then there's all this other stuff. I don't really know them well, but I'm not sure I like it. I mean if you heard trash about me from a certain someone, then oh well, it's probably not even true because that person lies; a blatant liar dammit.
- Hm I hate girls so much. Why you gotta be so vindictive and mean? The way we fight is secretly. Especially through gossip and whatnot. Guys mostly fist fight or they verablly fight and then get over it and fart afterwards; it's all good in the hood. Why you gotta say lies though? You didn't think I would of found out? Funny how he's still friends with you even though you said stupid lies about me. I tried being nice to you, but you were a spiteful bitch in the end who deliberately made your move towards him. Another person, damn man..why you gotta flirt so much? In general flirting with anyone who is in a relationship is just wrong and bitchy. Find someone else, man. Let the friggin' couple breakup peacefully or differently without someone in the way like that.
- The phone; miles away talking on the phone. Especially during classtime, hmm.. funny because you never talked on the phone with me during that time. I mean I'm not a big fan of the phone sometimes, but still.
- It's not my fault I remind you of her. It's not my fault that that ordeal ocurred, why must I lose a friend in the process when I didn't even do anything? You never even gave me a chance. I respect your want for change now and I'm sorry for lecturing you about crap. I support your journey towards self recovery and self discovery; all the way.
- Sometimes I just feel liek saying to a few of them to just go away, somewhere and not exist ever.
- Lemme ask you something, have you ever been forbidden from meeting someone? HAHA Yup that's happened to me, rather this girl is forbidden from meeting me. It actually sucks because she seems nice and stuff. How could these two people say to this girl that she is forbidden from ever meeting me. WTF kind of crock is that? I'd expect it from that person, but not you!
- Just the whole environment of everything makes me queesy (sp?) sometimes. I get weird feelings at the pit of my stomach. I'm scared of being sad again like I was. I'm scared in general. If you want to try again, then we can try again. Please tell me how you feel, please.
Excuse me if I sound overdramatized and whatnot. I'm pissed off and upset. However, this is my journal and I'm nice enough to not broadcast names all over to make them look evil or something. *cough* unlike someone I know who really loves humiliating me, for what reason, is fucking beyond me.
On the bright side, my happy side of me was excited about the Freire picnic. Today turned out nicely and I took like less than 5 pictures. I got my trophy for Lacrosse at the Sports Awards dinner. I sat with my mom for a little while. Then I sat with Nicole, Madeleine and Chrissy in the front while we ate and stuff. Tonight was my concert. We did better than the band *cough* hehe but it's the band's first year so their sitll beginners. Kudos! Tomorrow is Lance's concert inwhich I can't attend, sorry Lance Penis! I'll be there singing "Bohemian Rhapsody" in spirit, with you! <3 Thursday no school, going to work on my shirts probably, maybe. Gotta make Jenny's present. Etc...
Goddamn that rant...there's so much more I want to say but it's just stupid nonsense now. The stuff up there are just the things that have been on my mind most and I needed to get it off my chest. Dude, I don't even go to your school and I'm fedup! It seems like I have more stress there than my own damn school. Whatever if you don't like me as a friend or more than a friend then you're sadly missing out. I wish you the best of luck in life. I tried.
Adios,
Raina
P&L Forever.
PS- I wrote this at 1:20 am and it is now 2:11 am. *ahem* Oh yeah happy late 666. I wore my devil horns today briefly. It was funny. The end!