girls against drunk bitches.
wednesday afternoon i picked up ziv from her school then we met up with mike and hung out with him around college square then his place. joey and this other guy came over and joey was acting like a fucking asshole and snapping at me and ziv for nooo fucking reason. stupid boy. i was getting weird vibes from mike all ngiht. thats not good. i repeat; NOT A GOOD THING. idk man! ugh.
wednesday morning i had an ortho ap't and i get my braces off at my NEXT AP'T. :D yayyy.
umm thursday i had my eyedoctor ap't and i got new glasses! they're super. black rums with some red checkers and stuff!
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this is cut off my mypace and is full of anger.
1. IM SORRY I let you down. Again and again and again.
2. Dont fucking hate me and then try and be my best friend after you find out i started doing harder drugs? you do not qualify as an actual human being in my eyes.
3. I cant help but miss you more than I should. I know I shouldn't, but I do and I have for a while. I've never been that comfortable with a guy before, ever, and I'm scared I won't again.
4. Meeting you during the summer was fan-fucking-tastic and im happy we always manage to hangout and cheer each other up no matter what even if we're both sad from boys. which is way too often. lets have sex.
5. I know we've been best friends forever, but sometimes i just want to smash your fucking skull in.
6. Don't look at me like I'm fucking trash you used to be my best friend before you started hating me for no goddamn reason.
7. Fuck off and stop telling me how I should and should not be saving/spending my money. Its mine, to do what i want with, so fuck you.
8. I'm so happy we met [in a really fucked way.] I've never been this good of friends with someone, ever, I don't think. I love you and I love how we can talk about anything. p.s. i love your mom.
9. I loved spending the majority of my summer with you, mostly on the roof, and being able to talk about so many things, and i honestly miss those talks more than you know. they [and you] helped me alot.
10. I like how I've knwn you the longest out of all the dt kids, because your the best and ily.
11. You both need to stop worrying about me and lecturing me about my parents opinions and worries. especially one of you; YOU LIVE IN A DIFFERENT CITY what makes you think you can tell me what my parents think of me?
12. We got extremely distant over the summer and now we never talk anymore. I can't decide whether or not that really disapoints me that much.
13. I think you are too loud, too bitchy, too dramatic, and too much.
14. I'm sorry I keep fucking things up, while I'm fucked up.
15. Sometimes I want to scream that your fucking fake and i fucking hate you and everything to do with you and then other times i cant help but feel sorry for you because you are a pathetic human being.
16. iloveyouSOmuch and im happy we're better friends now. when i first met you i thought you hated me beyond all belief.
17. you are by far the funniest guy i have ever met and i'm so happy we met this summer and are now friends. I swear if you ever get mad at me ever again i will apologize and cry until your not mad anymore.
18. I hate that you are in my family, sadly there is nothing I can do about it, no matter what, so I will avoid and intimidate you to my full potential so you never talk to me ever again.
19. whenever i hear your conversations and your mindless talking about other people and other people's lives and/or feelings and/or drama, whether it does or does not involve you in anyway, always makes my ears bleed and my head hurt.
20. Thank you, I appreciate it, but your lectures are wasted. Save your breath, I don't give a shit.
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tra la la.
after my eyedoctor we went to local heroes, then home, then i drove jenn to emmas place, then we went and picked up ziv. me ziv and my mom went grocery shopping, it was tres fun and went home and ate food and watched movies and drank tea nad slept.
it was nice.
<3
umm friday woke up and made deformed pancakes. dyed the brown part of my hair again. went to drivers education. lunjia drove first, then me, then the weather got too shitty for lauren to drive. i was driving just when the freezing rain was getting really shitty. i was really scared to drive. every time i barely touched the gas pedal and the tires spun (which happened like 3-4 times) he would yell "DONT ACCELERATE WHAT ARE YOU DOING" and i just kept saying "IM NOT IM JUST TRYING TO MAKE THE CAR MOVE FORWARD." fucking IDIOT. i was actually reallyyyy scared to drive. i was like "sir i was in a car accident a week ago can i please not drive? this is scaring me." ... "oh no your not supposed to be scared keep driving." ... um wtf @ him. fucking jackass.
hatehatehate.
work tmo; 12:45-5:45.
thenn idk. dt i think, last chance before cuba.
6 days.
:]
made a new blog on myspaceee.
pictures from the accident.
but ill put them here too;
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the scariest part to me that gives me goosebumps, is the fact that i was on the other side of that crushed in door.
it scares the SHIT out of me.
wednesday morning i had an ortho ap't and i get my braces off at my NEXT AP'T. :D yayyy.
umm thursday i had my eyedoctor ap't and i got new glasses! they're super. black rums with some red checkers and stuff!
---------------------------
this is cut off my mypace and is full of anger.
1. IM SORRY I let you down. Again and again and again.
2. Dont fucking hate me and then try and be my best friend after you find out i started doing harder drugs? you do not qualify as an actual human being in my eyes.
3. I cant help but miss you more than I should. I know I shouldn't, but I do and I have for a while. I've never been that comfortable with a guy before, ever, and I'm scared I won't again.
4. Meeting you during the summer was fan-fucking-tastic and im happy we always manage to hangout and cheer each other up no matter what even if we're both sad from boys. which is way too often. lets have sex.
5. I know we've been best friends forever, but sometimes i just want to smash your fucking skull in.
6. Don't look at me like I'm fucking trash you used to be my best friend before you started hating me for no goddamn reason.
7. Fuck off and stop telling me how I should and should not be saving/spending my money. Its mine, to do what i want with, so fuck you.
8. I'm so happy we met [in a really fucked way.] I've never been this good of friends with someone, ever, I don't think. I love you and I love how we can talk about anything. p.s. i love your mom.
9. I loved spending the majority of my summer with you, mostly on the roof, and being able to talk about so many things, and i honestly miss those talks more than you know. they [and you] helped me alot.
10. I like how I've knwn you the longest out of all the dt kids, because your the best and ily.
11. You both need to stop worrying about me and lecturing me about my parents opinions and worries. especially one of you; YOU LIVE IN A DIFFERENT CITY what makes you think you can tell me what my parents think of me?
12. We got extremely distant over the summer and now we never talk anymore. I can't decide whether or not that really disapoints me that much.
13. I think you are too loud, too bitchy, too dramatic, and too much.
14. I'm sorry I keep fucking things up, while I'm fucked up.
15. Sometimes I want to scream that your fucking fake and i fucking hate you and everything to do with you and then other times i cant help but feel sorry for you because you are a pathetic human being.
16. iloveyouSOmuch and im happy we're better friends now. when i first met you i thought you hated me beyond all belief.
17. you are by far the funniest guy i have ever met and i'm so happy we met this summer and are now friends. I swear if you ever get mad at me ever again i will apologize and cry until your not mad anymore.
18. I hate that you are in my family, sadly there is nothing I can do about it, no matter what, so I will avoid and intimidate you to my full potential so you never talk to me ever again.
19. whenever i hear your conversations and your mindless talking about other people and other people's lives and/or feelings and/or drama, whether it does or does not involve you in anyway, always makes my ears bleed and my head hurt.
20. Thank you, I appreciate it, but your lectures are wasted. Save your breath, I don't give a shit.
---------------------------
tra la la.
after my eyedoctor we went to local heroes, then home, then i drove jenn to emmas place, then we went and picked up ziv. me ziv and my mom went grocery shopping, it was tres fun and went home and ate food and watched movies and drank tea nad slept.
it was nice.
<3
umm friday woke up and made deformed pancakes. dyed the brown part of my hair again. went to drivers education. lunjia drove first, then me, then the weather got too shitty for lauren to drive. i was driving just when the freezing rain was getting really shitty. i was really scared to drive. every time i barely touched the gas pedal and the tires spun (which happened like 3-4 times) he would yell "DONT ACCELERATE WHAT ARE YOU DOING" and i just kept saying "IM NOT IM JUST TRYING TO MAKE THE CAR MOVE FORWARD." fucking IDIOT. i was actually reallyyyy scared to drive. i was like "sir i was in a car accident a week ago can i please not drive? this is scaring me." ... "oh no your not supposed to be scared keep driving." ... um wtf @ him. fucking jackass.
hatehatehate.
work tmo; 12:45-5:45.
thenn idk. dt i think, last chance before cuba.
6 days.
:]
made a new blog on myspaceee.
pictures from the accident.
but ill put them here too;
------------------------------------
the scariest part to me that gives me goosebumps, is the fact that i was on the other side of that crushed in door.
it scares the SHIT out of me.