feel free to stop reading when you get tired of me
you know what i will never have that just about everyone else will have...i want a chance to be disciplined by my parents (my real parents) or learn how to ride a bike with my dad cheering me on as he lets go of the seat and i shake with anticipation just before he does, or have my mother explain how girls "work" and wait for her to finish making cookies so i can steal one; dont get me wrong i have had a wonderful life and wouldnt trade it for the world, but, i cant think of a day that goes by where i dont see a dad playing with his kids or a young boy crying for his mom when he gets a scrape.
more...i cant seem to stop complaining about girls, all they seem to want is a boy that will make them cry. "Brad you know you are an amazing guy..." blah blah blah its all bullshit i cant just sit around and wait "then be yourself and try, talk to girls, you are a pimp brad" again more bullshit.
I think that maybe i need to change i am trying my hardest to be the most genuine and unique person i can but maybe just maybe i can do what works. I see all of my friends, male friends, just smoke, drink and just get belligerent, and they get the girls, i have been thinking about getting back into smoking, doing drugs and drinking cause whatever i am doing is not working.
I quit my job last monday. i dont want to get into that right now
The think the moment i'll wish i will have the most but wont is watching my parents faces when i tell them they have a grandson/granddaughter.
Again i in no way want to change the past nor alter what God has placed in front of me as my future
more...i cant seem to stop complaining about girls, all they seem to want is a boy that will make them cry. "Brad you know you are an amazing guy..." blah blah blah its all bullshit i cant just sit around and wait "then be yourself and try, talk to girls, you are a pimp brad" again more bullshit.
I think that maybe i need to change i am trying my hardest to be the most genuine and unique person i can but maybe just maybe i can do what works. I see all of my friends, male friends, just smoke, drink and just get belligerent, and they get the girls, i have been thinking about getting back into smoking, doing drugs and drinking cause whatever i am doing is not working.
I quit my job last monday. i dont want to get into that right now
The think the moment i'll wish i will have the most but wont is watching my parents faces when i tell them they have a grandson/granddaughter.
Again i in no way want to change the past nor alter what God has placed in front of me as my future