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I wish things were simple and not so discouraging. Family, school, relationships and my lack of self-discipline are bogging me down.
School is going to be the death of me. That's all there is to it.
Family is frustrating.
Relationships are actually going quite well, lately. It seems that I've lost some friends that I was pretty dagum close to, but they don't seem to mind all that much. But the relationships that have replaced the old are pretty amazing. Like Brittany. Meine Güte. The girl is amazing, and definitely my best friend. And it just seems like the relationship sector of my life chooses when it feels like working, and when it doesn't, because I feel like I have absolutly no control whatsoever.
I've gained 12 lbs. since school started. I'm disgusted with myself. I can't stand that I lack that much self-discipline that I can't tell myself, "You know, Caitlin, maybe you shouldn't drink that soda, how about some water?" I invited my friend back, and we're gonna lose the weight together. It's decided.
I miss Ben. More than ever.
Speaking of Ben. I love love love Ben Kweller. It's driving me nuts!!!