A certain Girlie can date college boys, but does she want to?

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Time has gone by so fast. Already, Im a junior. Since the seventh grade I have wanted to be a junior and here I am. Freshman year was on going to change. I want to live my last two highschool years fighting for the top. And I will. Tommorow,e to remember, I had fun, laughed, and indulged right into highschool and began on my journey to discovering myself, discovering life. Sophmore year I plunged so much more into the realms of highschool. I grew up so much Sophmore year, that as I look back on it now, I cant believe it went by so fast. I finally realized that sometimes, its ok to let go, no matter how much it hurts, its ok. I danced on the sideskirts of sexuality and have only begun to learn what I want, and what I need to know. I found out that I am beautiful and shouldnt be ashamed of that. That even if I think other people are prettier, There is something in me that has a one up on them, which therefore, makes me equal...not inadequate. Life from now on is is graduation, and I will watch my brother and many others that I have watched grow up stand up, and say their final good-bye. Matt, he'll be leaving soon. And it hasnt hit me yet how hard im going to miss him. I think of all the times weve argued or laughed or just sat around and talked and I cant even begin to fathom how much im going to miss him. I remember him in the hospital, and Id come home, and even though there was only one person missing, it would feel so empty. Empty without my Matt. My Matty. My Mattykins.

Even though this school year is over, there are so many more exciting experiences yet to come. I welcome the upcoming endeavors, and I cant wait to battle the next two years with you all. Lets make them the best they can be.

Lotsa Love, Carolyn Rachel