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Hustle, bustle and so much muscle awww
Cells about to seperate
And I find it hard to concentrate and
Temporary this cash and carry
I'm stepping up to indicate
The time has come to deviate and
Their lives were the same in so many ways, different in many others, but they still found themselves shoved together in a world bursting at the seams. Life was a blur for her, living every day, moving along with the crowd, being numb, not caring about anyone else, not really giving a damn about herself. Hustle Bustle, so much muscle, it's how her school went, they'd run up two flights to get to class, down one, up one, down two, so on so forth. They never had a chance to talk before half of the year had wasted away, the school had somehow managed to split up most of their class, into two parts, the kids never really mixing together. By the time they had finally "met" she needed a change, she needed to step up, she needed to wander away from what she had come to know. He was there, he was an excuse, an opprotunity for a friend, thats all she wanted, it was exactly what she needed, just to escape.
All I want is for you to be happy and
Take this moment to make you my family and
Finally you have found something perfect and
Finally you have found
The few weeks that passed, she remembers with detail, she payed attention to them, she wanted to remeber them forever, just so she could prove to people that she was actually alive, that she could have fun. All she wanted was to be happy, she wanted him to be happy too, she didn't like seeing him act the way he was. Finally she realized she had found something close to perfect, finally she had found....
Death defying this mess I'm buying
It's raining down with love and hate
And I find it hard to motivate and
Estuary is blessed but scary your
Heart's about to palpitate
And I'm not about to hesitate and
The mess she was getting herself into wasn't what anyone needed, not at her age, she was young, she shouldn't be doing this, she should wait. Her heart was rainging down with love and hate, her friends were pushing her to do what she shouldn't of, he pushed her to do what she shouldn't of. She couldn't bring herself to tell him, not for a while, so she tried to hide it, but he knew her too well, they knew each other for less than a month, and he could predict her somedays. She was going to jump out of her safety net, into the ocean, and she was scared. She needed to get over her fear, and it was making her sick to her stomach. He wasn't going to stop, and he made her tell him, not forcefully, somewhat of a trick, he tricked her into saying what she felt, and he said he felt the same. Jumping out of the net felt blessed, she was glad she had done it, she didn't think she'd have any regrets, why would anyone regret something that made them so happy?
One to treasure the rest of your days here and
Give you pleasure in so many ways dear and
Finally you have found something perfect and
Finally you have found... here we go
Life began to look up for her, she was back into circles of friends, she was happier, less tense, she wanted the year to last so she wouldn't have to go back to the way things were, that ,. she couldn't handle that. Finally she had found something perfect, and she didn't want to loose him, she didnt want to lose it, she didn't want to face her fear, and lose to it again. She couldn't take it, and she was headed straight towards it.
Do you want me to show up for duty and
Serve this woman and honor her beauty and
Finally you have found something perfect
Finally you have found... yourself
With me... Will you... agree... to take
This man... into your world...
And now... we are as one...
He, he surpased anything she had ever dreamnt of, he treated her better than any other guys she ever had liked did. She felt like nothing could go wrong when he was with her, and she was safe, from the teasing, from the abuse, from anything and everything. He was supposed to take her and keep her safe, thats why she trusted him, thats why she told him that she put her trust in him, the first person that she would trust with her life, and he was about to shatter it.
My Lone ranger the heart exchanger
Is living in this figure eight
And I'll do my best to recreate and
Sweet precision and soft collision awww
Hearts about to palpitate
And I find it hard to seperate and
He yelled at her...not in person, over msn, she hated it, that she had been stupid enough to piss him off, she couldn't bear it, and the next day was hell for her, she couldn't cry over it, she tried, and she couldn't cry. She was beginning to realize where she had seen this before, earlier relationships were coming to her memory, the loops of them making a figure eight in her mind, and she didn't want to recreate them, but it seemed thats where she was headed. She found it hard to seperate from him, from his friendship, but she had to, summer had come, school was done, life, love was short lived. He blew up at her again, saying things that she had heard before, tearing open new wounds, making them hurt more than they ever had before.
ll I want is for you to be happy and
Take this woman and make you my family and
Finally you have found someone perfect and
Finally you have found... yourself
Finally she had found someone perfect, finally she had found herself, and once again, she had lost it. He, he on the other hand seemed to have taken it easily, well of course he did, he caused it. He's the one who decided to shatter any trust what so ever she had in him, he decided to do what he did. For once, the song didn't play out with her life, no matter how much she wished it could of lasted longer, she had fucked it up again, but then, if she thinks about it, it has to be his loss, he decided to do what he did, and she didn't want to go crawling back to him, not after what he had said, what he had broken, what he had shattered. She had herself, for the short ammount of time, and now she just needed to re-find what truly made her happy, even if she couldn't have it.
[Okay... it's totally fucked up, but Oh well, Constructive Critisism is always nice if you like me....otherwise just read it and then be like " She can't fucking write." The end.]