Dec 20, 2004 16:04
lately, i've been thinkin that...i'm a bitch. i never really gave it much thought, but i know i am. like last year, and in middle school i was so nice and so happy and it seemed like i was EVERYONE'S friend...now it's like, i'm scared of people, and i'm like standoffish. and i tend to be a little bit bitchy. I wish i knew what was wrong with me. I know it seems like i blame everything on my mother, and honestly i'm not blaming her for anything but...
ever since mom left i've been different. my attitude, my ability to love and trust people has been impaired, i've gained 40lbs...which sucks...i want 2005 to be MY year. my time to shine. i want everything to be MY WAY. I'm not going to let anyone get me down. im gonna be happy and everybody's friend...i'm gonna be sweet and fun to be around. ahh i just want to TOTALLY transform myself. my new years resolution is to lose 60lbs by June 30th(my bday) and its totally possible, i can definitely do it.i just cant wait to actually do it.
today has been pretty good. i woke up, got online then me n brooke made plans to go to sonic. so she picked me up and i was still in my jammies. as we turned outta greentree we saw jeff and we were stopped behind him at a red light so we honked. anyways we were riding side by side and jeff was like "CANDACE WE'RE PARTYING TONITE!!!!!!!" so that reminded me that i had a keg so i said "HELL YEAH I HAVE A KEG!!!!!" anyways i totally forgot about tonight...We're having Christmas tonite @ my grandparent's house because my Aunt has to go home tomorrow. So that sucks, no keg tonite. I was thinkin about waiting and just haveing a HUGE new years bash!! anyways me n brooke went to sonic, then the mall and shopped around and now i'm home. it was a fun day. and now im going to take a shower and get dressed so i can go to Mema and Pepa's later kids.
<3candace