I hope that you're happy, you really deserve it
I feel like theres nothing left for me to do. I didn't know that there was more to life than being, laughing, loving with you. I like to reminisce on the better times we've had, I like to think about getting "comfortable" with you, and you talking about pink bunnies when I was sad. All I'm doing by thinkink about all these things is hurting myself even more, but theres nothing else to think about, all that crosses my mind is how I'm so torn. There's nothing else I'd rather do than fall asleep on the phone with you. Sitting in silence in the theater, while your eyes are stuck on the screen, mine are stuck on you and I'm wondering how It's possible for a human being to be so beautiful, so perfect? The only one who occupies my thoughts is the same one who occupies my heart. You, darling are the one I want, you are the only one I want. I've realized that all this time I was trying to be strong living without you, was just a waste of my time. I have nothing, and I want nothing, if you're not there with me. They ask me why I'm so down, and they tell me it will be okay. But don't they know it's all over now, it's been over since you went away.
...i got bored in geometry and i was thinking about jays (surprise surprise) so i just started writing. i love him...seriously i'm pathetic..what am i ever gonna do? Why in the hell is he going out with Heather? I was talking to Chase and Mark and they were tellin me how much better i am than her. Chase was like "i dont know what he sees in her...you're prettier than she is, and you're not annoying and you don't get on my nerves" and i was like DONT TELL ME THAT!! cause honestly...i dont wanna hear about how horrible she is because that makes me feel bad...like he'd rather have her WHO IS HORRIBLE than me WHO IS GREAT (according to chase...lol dont think im a conceited bitch) i need to get my mind off of him. Easier said than done. I'm going to go sleep, thats the only was i dont think about things, as long as i don't dream...
...i got bored in geometry and i was thinking about jays (surprise surprise) so i just started writing. i love him...seriously i'm pathetic..what am i ever gonna do? Why in the hell is he going out with Heather? I was talking to Chase and Mark and they were tellin me how much better i am than her. Chase was like "i dont know what he sees in her...you're prettier than she is, and you're not annoying and you don't get on my nerves" and i was like DONT TELL ME THAT!! cause honestly...i dont wanna hear about how horrible she is because that makes me feel bad...like he'd rather have her WHO IS HORRIBLE than me WHO IS GREAT (according to chase...lol dont think im a conceited bitch) i need to get my mind off of him. Easier said than done. I'm going to go sleep, thats the only was i dont think about things, as long as i don't dream...