wow.. it's been so long
i used to keep a journal,
but ever since i've been with you,
It's been hard. there's so much
to say and the pages are just better
being blank; i'll remember it all anyway
that's exactly how i feel right now.. me and my boyfriend (and father of my kid) of almost 2 years broke up 2 nights ago. i used to write in this thing alot.. it helped me vent.. but for the last year, my boyfriend has treated me like shit, lying to me, doin stuff behind my back, goin out with other girls.. stupid shit like that.. now i'm not sayin i was a saint.. i messed up twice.. but compared to his like 100, seriously, it's nothing.
it's like so weird to be away from him.. we basically lived together.. and i was always used to have someone around, someone to talk to, and all that.. and now that i'm back at my house with my mom.. i don't really have anyone like i did. it sucks, because i stay so bored, and i can't really eat, or sleep.. i try to talk to him, but every time i do, he talks to me like i'm shit, or something.. and i can't handle that.. blaming me for everything.. when it's not even my fault.
well i guess now that i'm single, i'll have time to write in this thing alot more, haha.
but ever since i've been with you,
It's been hard. there's so much
to say and the pages are just better
being blank; i'll remember it all anyway
that's exactly how i feel right now.. me and my boyfriend (and father of my kid) of almost 2 years broke up 2 nights ago. i used to write in this thing alot.. it helped me vent.. but for the last year, my boyfriend has treated me like shit, lying to me, doin stuff behind my back, goin out with other girls.. stupid shit like that.. now i'm not sayin i was a saint.. i messed up twice.. but compared to his like 100, seriously, it's nothing.
it's like so weird to be away from him.. we basically lived together.. and i was always used to have someone around, someone to talk to, and all that.. and now that i'm back at my house with my mom.. i don't really have anyone like i did. it sucks, because i stay so bored, and i can't really eat, or sleep.. i try to talk to him, but every time i do, he talks to me like i'm shit, or something.. and i can't handle that.. blaming me for everything.. when it's not even my fault.
well i guess now that i'm single, i'll have time to write in this thing alot more, haha.