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been SO inactive lately, my computer decided to shit out on us for a couple days.
but yeah, i pretty much dove into the holidays face first with my mouth open. jesuschrist.
and i've been watching Newlyweds on dvd nonstop today cos i bough the 2nd/3rd season, jessica simpson has such a GORGEOUS body, i would love to look like that. her legs and stomach are to die for. total thinspiration, totally made me feel like a fat slackass. if im gonna have an uglyass face i might as well have a hot body. i've done absolutely nothing, exercise-wise or anything over the holidays, ugh.
i never want to do anything these days, and i'm pretty much upset about something, or stressed about something all the time. its starting to take over and i'm getting worried... like, when i'm out with a friend or with my bf it goes away, but if i let my mind wander, it comes back. like how im never gonna be smart enough or pretty enough or cool enough or make enough money and how i'll fall short of the life i want and how i'll never be happy. i just want to like, sleep my life away or something.
but yeah, i'm gonna work all january i think, maybe up to reading week, then quit. i sound like such a spoiled brat, i know, but working makes me want to barf or something. i dunno, i guess i just hate everything so much its overwhelming at times. i dont even know wtf i'm doing anymore.
this entry is stupid and random and makes no sense.
but yeah, i pretty much dove into the holidays face first with my mouth open. jesuschrist.
and i've been watching Newlyweds on dvd nonstop today cos i bough the 2nd/3rd season, jessica simpson has such a GORGEOUS body, i would love to look like that. her legs and stomach are to die for. total thinspiration, totally made me feel like a fat slackass. if im gonna have an uglyass face i might as well have a hot body. i've done absolutely nothing, exercise-wise or anything over the holidays, ugh.
i never want to do anything these days, and i'm pretty much upset about something, or stressed about something all the time. its starting to take over and i'm getting worried... like, when i'm out with a friend or with my bf it goes away, but if i let my mind wander, it comes back. like how im never gonna be smart enough or pretty enough or cool enough or make enough money and how i'll fall short of the life i want and how i'll never be happy. i just want to like, sleep my life away or something.
but yeah, i'm gonna work all january i think, maybe up to reading week, then quit. i sound like such a spoiled brat, i know, but working makes me want to barf or something. i dunno, i guess i just hate everything so much its overwhelming at times. i dont even know wtf i'm doing anymore.
this entry is stupid and random and makes no sense.