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Hey Shannon,
First off you deserve a lot better, and katelyn isnt exactly sure on what she wants, last friday she was talking about breaking up with me, and the weekend before, and the weekend before. Now i know why you need contacts, you cant see what you really look like lol. And you're wrong I could never forget you, and i still trust you, you still make me smile, and you still make me happy ..... sometimes. You dont have to feel bad becuase I cry about stuff i shouldnt becuase believe it or not, i'm weaker then you ( emotionaly) im a wimp.
Anwsers
1. I dont sleep for a couple reasons, one is becuase sometimes i just like to think about things when everything is quite and nobody's around to tell me i'm wrong, another reason is just sometimes i cant becuase i cant stop crying not just about you but about everything, disapionting my family with school, I might move to a differant high school,sometimes i just try to think about what i'm gonna do the next day.
2. I gave up becuase I guess i just dont care what happens sometimes and then regret it later that night and becuase sometimes i dont really care what people think about how i look and why should i work so hard for others, then i think of you and i thats the only reason i do things. i cant imagine forgeting about you becuase even if i wanted to i still have your picture, and hat lol.
3. For #3 i dont really have an anwser becuase i dont know. it might be becuase im not working out and not being athletic anymore wich means my body doesnt need as much, thats why my brother looks the way he does hes not athletic and doesnt work out.
Well there you go three anwsers for three questions, dont worry nothing is goin to happen to me you shouldnt have to worry about me anyway. Im sorry ive not been as happy its wierd for me like in school one class im happy the next im sad i have bad mood swings.....I'll call you
-Shane
Hey Shannon,
We just got off the phone when i started this. You're right I do want to tell you something, i've wanted to tell you something every day for the last three months, but I really think that you would rather just have things just stay how they are. You know you can always call me right? i will listen whenever you need someone you can call anytime becuase It's been a little bit harder to sleep for me. I know that you want to blame yourself for what happened but if you think about it its not your fualt becuase you love him and he made you happy and thats a lot better than how you were feeling, I know. If you want to make me happy all you have to do is admit how freaking beautiful you really are, becuase it makes me feel so wrong when you say you arnt. I always thought that you were tough but i am afriad to hurt you, every time i talk to you im afriad and sometimes i dont even know why. what do you mean when you say perfect? Everything wasnt perfect if you were sad. If you really want me to be happy dont blame yourself. Well you wanted to know what i was thinking saturday so here i go. I was having so much fun, i was so happy to see you guys, then jamie said something that reminded me of the dance, then that reminded me of like everything and aas the night went on i kept thinking about everything that i did with you. It made me happy to think of you but at the same time I realized how much i missed you and how much i care about you and it made me feel like i just wanted to lay down and die, but then when you sat down and talked with me i was okay, so when i was crying when you were holding me i just felt like you could always catch me when i was falling and that i can talk to you. well i write too much and im back on the phone with you so im gonna put this to an end.
-Shane
hey Shannon,
I finaly got my computer fixed....again. anyway how are you doing? you know something, I worry about you too much, every time you look even a little upset it bugs until im positive your ok. So nick doesnt really think if its gonna work with jamie now, he told me thats what u were talking about.I know that they could work out if nick tried harder. I'm sorry that I've been confusing you all I want is for you to be happy.I'm sorry that i thought you didnt care becuase nick really made me think too, and he explianed to me how you feel. You know that you mean everything to me, and that I would never hurt you. yester day when we were at jamies I was happy to hold you again, thats why I was so clingy, Are you sure that breaking up with Ian is what you want? You say you know what your doing and i believe you, it's just you looked upset today last period and I was wondering what was going through your head. Anyway im glad you like the CD all this next stuff is just random crap thats going through my head. I noticed that you were wearing the necklace I got you, nick said that you were waiting for me to notice. What are you doing friday, wait nevermind you and jamie are going to the mall. you have been in my head all day, and I've been thinking about everything and i was thinking about friday and if it makes you feel better at all I think it was worth it and I would do it agian even if I might get hurt, you are a REALLY good kisser lol . I melt everytime you kiss my neck too lolI might call you yonight but I dunno, you can always call me i wont fall asleep(unless i take sleeping pills lol) and the ringer is only connected to my room so dont worry about my parents I'll talk to you laaater cuv i have to finish my homework see you tomorrow
-Shane -
hey Shannon
whats up? When I was taking that quiz yesterday a lot of stuff was going through my head, and to tell you the truth I didnt know what to say for some of those questions. Anyway I was thinking of you and thats why I decided to send you this. I'm sorry to hear about your grandfather, I hope he gets better. You have no idea how happy you make me, just thinking about you can make me smile. I'm excited about the dance on friday and I'm glad that you are going. I'm on the phone with nick right now and hes taking the quiz you sent. we want to do something tomorrow but we dont have any plans so if you get this before tomorrow call me and tell me what we should do or we could just work stuff out last minute at school. Well I still have to do the math homework I probably wont even know how to do the math but o well. talk to you later.
- Shane
hey babygirl
I called you that in the other email but i changed it becuase well I dunno I guess I changed it becuase I already told you what I said and I changed it back to shannon. anyway I was right I have no clue how to do the math homework, that sux that we cant do anything tomorrow but o well we can hang out another time. This is completly random but what is your middle name? I think you told me before but I dont remember. lol I dont know why I was thinking about that. I'm going to give the chain katelyn got me back to her tomorrow becuase I found it in my back pack and i don wear it anymore. I worked out this weekend, woot woot lol I did 250 sit-ups like you and jamie do and I was like holy shit that gets annoying how do you do it twice a day. then I just did the bench and curls the rest of the time. I talked to nick about jamie and he wants to ask her to the dance and then ask her out on the last dance, but he probably wont. I g2g but I'l talk to you later
-Shane