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Ok, i've been trying to think how to start this for the past 20 odd mins...and i'm getting nowhere. I'll be blunt, i'm not happy.
I hate waking up in the morning in the same mood I went to bed - I'm rarely happy as of late, and theres no reason for it. Or maybe there is...fuck knows.
I don't know how to vent my anger, depression or any of that stuff thats thrown into the package deal of emotions that everyone seems to get slapped with. I've bottled too many things up over the past few years, I hate talking about what really annoys me or even what makes me occasionally happy.
I'm pretty sure some of you reading this will realise that I'm a bit of an ungrateful cunt. Am I right? I know I am....what do i actually haev to complain about? I'm relativley healthy, there's a roof over my head, I have a few REALLY amazing friends and A job that I want for the rest of my life.....
....So why the fuck am I not happy?! Why Do I wake up every morning with a look of thunder on my face and the urge to just just scream?
I know one day, eveything I care about and take for granted will be gone...I know i'll end up being a bitter old man and all alone. Part of me wants it though...and I'm just so confused about everything.
To sum things up....
I really, really, REALLY hate you...
I miss you...
I love you...
I want to hurt you, So much...
...Theres many more, but I don't want people getting too confused thinking thats all about 1 person...
...just the route of some of my mediocre problems and frustration.
...Fin
I hate waking up in the morning in the same mood I went to bed - I'm rarely happy as of late, and theres no reason for it. Or maybe there is...fuck knows.
I don't know how to vent my anger, depression or any of that stuff thats thrown into the package deal of emotions that everyone seems to get slapped with. I've bottled too many things up over the past few years, I hate talking about what really annoys me or even what makes me occasionally happy.
I'm pretty sure some of you reading this will realise that I'm a bit of an ungrateful cunt. Am I right? I know I am....what do i actually haev to complain about? I'm relativley healthy, there's a roof over my head, I have a few REALLY amazing friends and A job that I want for the rest of my life.....
....So why the fuck am I not happy?! Why Do I wake up every morning with a look of thunder on my face and the urge to just just scream?
I know one day, eveything I care about and take for granted will be gone...I know i'll end up being a bitter old man and all alone. Part of me wants it though...and I'm just so confused about everything.
To sum things up....
I really, really, REALLY hate you...
I miss you...
I love you...
I want to hurt you, So much...
...Theres many more, but I don't want people getting too confused thinking thats all about 1 person...
...just the route of some of my mediocre problems and frustration.
...Fin