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For once I haven't been writing because life is good. I can't really explain how nice it's been living in this apartment. Being on campus is exactly the experience I'd hoped it would be. My roomates are fun and they keep me from being a loser and sitting at home all the time. Money isn't an issue here...it flows in and flows out having little effect on my happiness. My job was a frustrating sitation that I decided to free myself from. So, I resigned and though I don't yet have a job lined up, my last day is the end of this month. I wish I were more stressed about it, but I have this sense of inner peace. I just know I'll get something. I applied to about 20 campus jobs, a few internships (paid of course) and about 5 jobs at the local hospitals doing clerical work.
I baught a guitar. It's been so fun just sitting with a musical instrument and concentrating on something productive other than school. Creating again. Creating music and feeling free and happy. Noise, but good noise. I definately had buyer's remorse over the 300 dollars I spent on the guitar and all it's accessories. But, I tell myself it's a part of life to enjoy the dollars you work so hard to make. Anyway, I love the little calluses forming on my fingertips. I touch them every now and then and feel really good about how diligently I've been practicing.
2 months away from completing all of the requirements for my surgery. It's getting so close...but it's still something I think of in a remote way. Yes, I know it will happen to me but the reality of it still seems out there. I think it's an enormous committment and I will spend the rest of my life dedicated to it.
I got my period today and was happy. Not because I was afraid I wouldn't get it...that's rediculous. More like I felt the sunshine and knew it was spring. I felt my body was a part of that cycle. Right on time and in tune with the earth. Feels good to be a woman and to be pretty and whole. I look forward to the shorter nights and how good the air will smell.
Peace
I baught a guitar. It's been so fun just sitting with a musical instrument and concentrating on something productive other than school. Creating again. Creating music and feeling free and happy. Noise, but good noise. I definately had buyer's remorse over the 300 dollars I spent on the guitar and all it's accessories. But, I tell myself it's a part of life to enjoy the dollars you work so hard to make. Anyway, I love the little calluses forming on my fingertips. I touch them every now and then and feel really good about how diligently I've been practicing.
2 months away from completing all of the requirements for my surgery. It's getting so close...but it's still something I think of in a remote way. Yes, I know it will happen to me but the reality of it still seems out there. I think it's an enormous committment and I will spend the rest of my life dedicated to it.
I got my period today and was happy. Not because I was afraid I wouldn't get it...that's rediculous. More like I felt the sunshine and knew it was spring. I felt my body was a part of that cycle. Right on time and in tune with the earth. Feels good to be a woman and to be pretty and whole. I look forward to the shorter nights and how good the air will smell.
Peace