WTF....IM SORRY

[x_nacya_x]

omg tonight was one of the worst nights of my entire life.... i decided i didnt want a bf and everybody is mad at me because i hurt casey unintentionally. i feel worse than you could ever know!! im beating myself up about the whole ordeal i dont need everybody else doing the same thing. i get it i hurt casey but i didnt do it on purpose i feel i did the right thing by telling him about it and telling him that i didnt want anything serious and about everything that happened. i feel i was being mature about it. it has only been a week of us even haning out let alone liking eachother to the full extent of even going out that has probably only been going on for a couple days. i dont see how im such a bad person if i had gone out with him and decided this about a week down the road then i would be a shitty person but for me telling him that now i believe that i made things ok. and for those of you that are mad at me i dont understand why if casey isnt mad at me and still wants to talk to me then why would the rest of you be. it really makes no sense. and also for those of you who think it has to do with a certain person i may have kissed you are so far from the truth it is not even funny.... for the few people i talked to about this before anything happened know i was feeling this before "we" kissed i hear you are the ones who are mad at me which is beyond me and i dont understand its like i tell you something that im going to do but when it happens im a horrible person.... please clarify and help me understand how im terrible for not wanting a serious relationship .... im not usually an emotional person but tonight i was and for those of you who are mad at me im sorry for hurting your friend i do like him a lot i just dont want anything serious i know some of you have been in the situation before again i feel worse than you could ever know i dont need my friends mad at me on top of it all please im sincerely sorry for anyones feelings who were hurt in the process of the whole thing! i love all of you even though you may not love me right now. for about the third time im sooooooo sorry casey i feel horrible! i do care about you!! i swear its the truth. and for those of you who are mad at me please understand where im coming from i didnt mean anything wrong by what i did.<333333

sincerely sorry,
kayla