she falls asleep into dreams where she is safe...
life is good lately. busy but good. second game tomorrow away at Stamford. yay/not. im starting at right halfback; but somehow, not sure by doing what or when, i twisted my knee or something. basically im gonna sum all my bitching up into : i cant perform up to par lately and im scared shes gonna give my spot away.
and for the record senior year is depressing me. im REALLY bad with change. im super moody lately and ive been snapping at my friends ALOT. i always seem to have a neg. attitude lately. i cant look at my senior pics and say one good thing about myself bc i feel like i look like shit. im not ready for college; nor do i know WTF I WANNA DO. i need a job but i cant not do FH. i got 3 big parts in thaeter arts that i need to perfrom; and after that ends, drama season starts. BRING ON THE ANXIETY.
i finished my therapist sessions, but i need to go to a cognitive therapist so he/she can get into my mind and figure out why i go bullshit on ppl for nothing. im just really super stressed lately, and only having 1 day off a week from FH isnt cutting it.
arite sorry. im done. i feel a littel bit better.
gnite.
and for the record senior year is depressing me. im REALLY bad with change. im super moody lately and ive been snapping at my friends ALOT. i always seem to have a neg. attitude lately. i cant look at my senior pics and say one good thing about myself bc i feel like i look like shit. im not ready for college; nor do i know WTF I WANNA DO. i need a job but i cant not do FH. i got 3 big parts in thaeter arts that i need to perfrom; and after that ends, drama season starts. BRING ON THE ANXIETY.
i finished my therapist sessions, but i need to go to a cognitive therapist so he/she can get into my mind and figure out why i go bullshit on ppl for nothing. im just really super stressed lately, and only having 1 day off a week from FH isnt cutting it.
arite sorry. im done. i feel a littel bit better.
gnite.