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well i got the job working with my dad. ill be cleaning boats and such using chemicals. ill be getting paid decent. now theres all this talk stirring that im moving to ny in march. me and justina are talking about getting the apartment next door to nons. id get a job at legal with her and wed be happy and together like we should be. I want to go, more then anything in the world, but Andrew.... ugh.... he doesnt read my lj which is good because then i can say how i feel about him haha. I feel like I'm falling in love. It scares me. The relationship is completly one-sided and he doesnt really do anything spectacular for me, but idk. He just, ugh. idk. Itd be hard to leave him. Especially with the guilt trips. When I was talking about moving before he got really upset with me and told me that he really didnt want me to go. So thats where I get confused. He doesnt really show any emotion which leads me to believe hes not feeling anything, then he goes and does that. And now I feel like I'm falling for him and the reason I'm scared is because I dont feel like hes anywhere NEAR where I'm feeling, and I do soooooo much for him. I dont get it. UGHHHH. I WANT TO GO TO NY TO GET AWAY FROM EVERYTHING AND GO BE WITH MY SISTER.