lost
so im lost. i dont know what to do anymore. seriously. God, what are you trying to tell me. Where is my path leading me. I dont even know what path to take. I'm starting school in fall, no matter where it is. I want to be in NY, thats where my heart and soul is but that plan may be a little too far fetch at this very moment. I dont know what to do about my sigificant other. I may have bitten off a little more then I can chew. I dont like babysitting and I dont like playing mommy. He needs to grow up and start supporting himself because I cant afford to support the 2 of us, I cant even afford to support myself right now. I'm so stressed with everything. I have no money, and Im only getting 2 days a week at Applebees making $35 a day. I have too many bills to even attempt to live off that. so, about the whole playing mommy thing... I try to help him get a job but you cant help someone that doesnt want to be helped. quit making so many excuses just grow up. Maybe Im asking too much of him? He doesnt give me the affection I want either and it drives me crazy. I want to date a man, not a boy I miss Justina. My sister. I want to go back to NY. I talked to Nonna today for like 45 minutes about life and what she thinks is best for me. God, please show me the path in which I should take. I'm so lost with no bread crumbs...