Nov 30, 2005 23:09
so things have been going good with work. it seems as though i spend more money then i make which kinda sucks. i leave for ny in 30 days and i couldnt be more excited. i get to bring in the new year with my wonderful and loving boyfriend and it also means i get a break from work. im sooooooo stoked. its going to be so cold and i dont even own a coat. what the hell did i need a coat for growing up in fl!? jeeeeeez. more money i have to spend now. christmas is coming and i already know what im getting alex. i already got my moms gift. im going out shopping tomorrow for everyone elses gifts. alexs family is gonna be kinda hard to shop for. his mom, i have NO idea what she likes and his brother is a weirdo haha so idk. steph, his sister, is VERRRRYYY easy to shop for. she loves anything disney so its kinda obvious what ill get her.so i kinda had a scare. i thought i was seriously pregnant for the last couple of days. it was so scary, but yet, kinda exciting. it was exciting to know that if i was, i was carrying the guy i plan on spending the rest of my life with, baby. hmm how cute. but uhhh yea. so i found out today that im not. kinda sad because i was so set on it that i was but you know. we have our whole lives ahead of us and God makes things happen for a reason. the time will come and hopefully its the right time so we can plan a little more accordingly. things i guess are kinda mending themselves with justina and i. its going slow which i guess is okay with me. i just think that someone you grew up with and is like a sister would show a little more effort in keeping in touch especially if she keeps better in touch with my boyfriend then she does me. ugh. whatever im not gonna get myself upset over it again. i just decided that i would cut all ties with her. things were fine for about 2 weeks she didnt call either one of us and just the other day she called and we talked for a good hour. but then i guess alex took that as a hint that he could call her and everythings fine again. blllleeeehhhh.
im outty<3