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[x_missdarko_x]

Back from the holiday in France and my festival. Both were amazing.

I never chilled so much in my life as those two weeks in France, it was really stressless. The highlights of our day were diving in the swimming pool and going to the grocery store. We also took four days to visit Carcassonne, which is a castle that normally takes only one day. The

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[x_missdarko_x]

(we both can't use html, and still you're better at it than me)

Good, I'll look forward to it. :)

And I am okay, just sometimes I get a little shower of sadness over me. Like, I start questioning and pondering and thinking too much. About what I wanna do when I'm graduated, about how I can give my life a little push, about where I wanna be in five years, about my priorities, about boys, about a lack of friends with the same music taste (Alter Bridge!Bullet for my Valentine!The Subways!), about my dreams of moving abroad and about the chance of me being happy if I do move, blahblablah. It's like a cloud hanging over me, that wasn't there last year. But it has been going on for about six months now. So I keep hoping it will go away and I'll be happy and content with what I do have, instead of pining after things I don't. But I talk about it with my friends, and that always makes me feel better. So, no worries. Maybe my trip to Africa will help me figure some things out. Or maybe, this cloud will just graduatly disappear on its own.

But yeah, thanks for the concern. And the chance of writing it out. You're the best.

xxx

[inpurity]

*HUGGLES*

I know how you feel, not completely of course,as you are you and I am me, but I was there, just a breath away from graduating and all that it means.

It is normal to feel worried, clouded over by all the possibilities, but it doesn't have to necessarily be like that.
Your graduation is not a deadline to decide what you want to do, it's just a suggested line, you can push it forward as much as you need, because you can find out at 5 or at 50.

Hold on to what makes you HAPPY, what gives you the strength to wake up and get up in the morning.
Happiness is not like a flash food, is a steady, pattering rain that filters through you.
Be a rainbow.

I am here for you whenever you want to talk.
I mean it.

MUCH LOVE
<333

[x_missdarko_x]

I never really thought about it that way. Wow. But you're right, my cloud could be linked to the fact that I'm graduating. That's an interesting perspective. I've always been playing with the idea that after I graduate, I'll take a year off, work abroad or volunteer in a third world country. With the way I like travelling (I recently decided that next summer vacation, I'm gonna do a three week trip again to another continent), that might just be what I need.

And "working in a new environment" makes me happy too. And bicyling. So I'm gonna look out for a new student job for in the school year, and I'm gonna go cycling right now.

Yeah, concentrate on what makes me happy. I'll try :) It includes sleeping till twelve in the morning and dreaming about Gerard. That boy! And punkrock music.

I'll keep this post and you in mind.
Thank you. A lot.

x