ITS FRIDAY!!!
ok fridays make me REALLY want to hook up w/ a guy. its like annoying cuz i know t hat if i try hard enough i could get a guy but i hang w/ friends who either have a bf or hate thinking of guys as more then friends or just simply dont want to bother with it so I CANT!!! lol ariana and i were looking for guys tonight tho. i saw sparky and right when he saw me he skateboarded over me and he didn't hug me or anything cuz idk he doesnt do that when more then one person is around and tammy and ariana were with me. but it was sooo funny cuz he would like talk to me and we have like inside jokes and all that stuff and then he would talk to ariana if she talked to him but he kept looking at tammy funny....hmmm.... lol poor tammy.
I LOVE SPARKY!!!! hes so fucking hott and its not fair!!! ok well from now on i'm going to try hard to get him and this time i will follow through with it. normally i get a guy to like me but then i get scared to get hurt so nothing ever happens but this time hopefully it will be different :)!
kayle and allan were talking and having fun all night until the end and i guess he said something to her or she said something to him which made them both upset cuz both walked away crying. i wanted to know what happened but no one would tell me. i just hope things get better though. LUV YA ALLAN AND KAYLE!
i feel bad though cuz today when i was in town i completely ignored raphael alex and leo. idk y tho. it was weird. i just really wanted to hang out with just girls tonight like how it is during soccer. cuz when there are just girls it reminds me of when vicky was still here. 9 MORE DAYS TILL SHE COMES!!!
i was reading something in composition today and it was about friends. it said " buddies are people you like to hang out with just to have fun and ignore the problems in your life but friends are different. friends are people you open up to and pour all your feelings out to."
i noticed that i have a lot of "buddies" but not a lot of "friends". like all my "friends" switch around. sometimes i open up to someone but then they turn around and stab me in the back and it breaks my heart. right now my "friends" are ariana tammy and kayle. its weird cuz last weekend it was casey tammy and kayle and the week before that it was aileen and ariana. lol its so weird. but tonight i feel like i had good in depth conversations with ariana kayle and tammy. i felt like aileen and casey and i were just hanging out and having fun but didn't have a "meaningful" conversatoin. but thats kool cuz i had A LOT of fun with them, especially on the walk home from soccer. lol its a LONG story but one word that sums it all up is "OWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!" lol. idk i'm confused. i love all my friends but i feel closer to different people everyday. i hope that soon i can feel really close to someone EVERYDAY and it will stay that way for a long time. that means no more fights, no more talking behind backs, and no more keeping secrets from everyone. buttttttttttt life is good right now, just minor improvements are all that is needed to make like PERFECT!!!
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~kimmy
I LOVE SPARKY!!!! hes so fucking hott and its not fair!!! ok well from now on i'm going to try hard to get him and this time i will follow through with it. normally i get a guy to like me but then i get scared to get hurt so nothing ever happens but this time hopefully it will be different :)!
kayle and allan were talking and having fun all night until the end and i guess he said something to her or she said something to him which made them both upset cuz both walked away crying. i wanted to know what happened but no one would tell me. i just hope things get better though. LUV YA ALLAN AND KAYLE!
i feel bad though cuz today when i was in town i completely ignored raphael alex and leo. idk y tho. it was weird. i just really wanted to hang out with just girls tonight like how it is during soccer. cuz when there are just girls it reminds me of when vicky was still here. 9 MORE DAYS TILL SHE COMES!!!
i was reading something in composition today and it was about friends. it said " buddies are people you like to hang out with just to have fun and ignore the problems in your life but friends are different. friends are people you open up to and pour all your feelings out to."
i noticed that i have a lot of "buddies" but not a lot of "friends". like all my "friends" switch around. sometimes i open up to someone but then they turn around and stab me in the back and it breaks my heart. right now my "friends" are ariana tammy and kayle. its weird cuz last weekend it was casey tammy and kayle and the week before that it was aileen and ariana. lol its so weird. but tonight i feel like i had good in depth conversations with ariana kayle and tammy. i felt like aileen and casey and i were just hanging out and having fun but didn't have a "meaningful" conversatoin. but thats kool cuz i had A LOT of fun with them, especially on the walk home from soccer. lol its a LONG story but one word that sums it all up is "OWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!" lol. idk i'm confused. i love all my friends but i feel closer to different people everyday. i hope that soon i can feel really close to someone EVERYDAY and it will stay that way for a long time. that means no more fights, no more talking behind backs, and no more keeping secrets from everyone. buttttttttttt life is good right now, just minor improvements are all that is needed to make like PERFECT!!!
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~kimmy