I’ll meet you there
Within the dynamic of us meeting I hoped for different things at different times. At all times I hoped for clarity and honesty. For the longest time I hoped I’d have a life to share with you. I hoped to have a family with you. At one point the hope was that we would have kids together. Then the hope changed to your kids and my kids becoming our kids. At some point I hoped we would end up being genuine friends. My last hope was along the lines of Rumi’s poem “Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and right doing there is a field. I’ll meet you there.” I held on to that hope for as long as I could. But I had to let go of that hope, as I did all others before. I went into the field alone and met the ending of us meeting.