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Im really scared that things may really be over between Matt and I. He pushed me to my limit and I think I finally pushed him to his.
Why? How could he just be soo lazy and forgetful, and unmotivated and be living at home with this parents at the age of 22 and be happy? Being poor and at home and not doing anything to further yourself as a person or professional would not make me happy. Id feel like a waste of space.
But its his life. but what does that say about a future? His friends lie and use him for his car. I just wanted him to grow up a little bit.
But then again, who I am to try and change somebody.
Thats why its probably better we aren't together. We are different people and its not fair of me to ask him to be anything other than himself.
What happpened to my boyfriend that I met in March? Where did he go?
Im such a lush and a dumb fuck and I'm ready to grow up too. I want him to with me. I wanted to move in together eventually. I loved being his partner. But not when things aren't honest, and not where I am the adult and he's the child.
Whatever.
What is love to me?
Love is accepting somebody for their faults and seeing the good in someone even in a bad situation. Love is not easy, nor is always kind. Love is worth the biggest leap's of faith though, and has the power to change one's life.
I'm in love... possibly with the wrong person though.
Why? How could he just be soo lazy and forgetful, and unmotivated and be living at home with this parents at the age of 22 and be happy? Being poor and at home and not doing anything to further yourself as a person or professional would not make me happy. Id feel like a waste of space.
But its his life. but what does that say about a future? His friends lie and use him for his car. I just wanted him to grow up a little bit.
But then again, who I am to try and change somebody.
Thats why its probably better we aren't together. We are different people and its not fair of me to ask him to be anything other than himself.
What happpened to my boyfriend that I met in March? Where did he go?
Im such a lush and a dumb fuck and I'm ready to grow up too. I want him to with me. I wanted to move in together eventually. I loved being his partner. But not when things aren't honest, and not where I am the adult and he's the child.
Whatever.
What is love to me?
Love is accepting somebody for their faults and seeing the good in someone even in a bad situation. Love is not easy, nor is always kind. Love is worth the biggest leap's of faith though, and has the power to change one's life.
I'm in love... possibly with the wrong person though.