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Challenge (yes man) started august 22. I took this "challenge" because I figured all the things I regret are things I didn't go to, the things I said no. Even when I end up regretting saying yes, a couple months later, it's no longer a regret anymore.
Saturday I was invited to go to a BBQ. I Hesitated because it was at Randall's place and I know how he talks about his friends ex girlfriends, so I didn't know if he wanted me there. Was convinced and went anyway, had a fun time with Frankie and jun and Sarrah and shotgunned a beer and won :).
Shirley then asked me if I was still down to hang out with her friends, to which I said no to. I knew it would be a good chance to meet new people and I wonder why I didn't go. Maybe because I went and ate and didn't really make an impression of myself. If I were looking at myself from an outsiders pov, id think I was the awkward ex. But anyway.
I smoked with jun and talked to Sarrah. I think in the end it was because I was too tired to talk or stand or even eat. I was so tired to the point that standing up to get food and then chew on it was too much so I just sat there.
That was that. When I'm high all my insecurities come out, x10. All my guilt with jonny and hiking and for being bad company came out. I was super sensitive when it was pointed out. Dunno. Then they went to pb and I was really sad because I'm not old enough and I've always wanted to go to pb. Sad.
Whatever.