in a real shit flinging mood
its true nobody writes in livejournal unless they are stupidly depressed or wants to tell people how crazy cocked they got the night before. Man im wounded. school is a real trip, its an injection of stress. never agree to become a manager at any store. by doing that you have ultimately killed your life. people will hate you, as a result your personal life suffers DRAMATICALLY. thats it you lose track of friends family, i haven't seen my best friends in like 6 months, hell i haven't even talked to my own mother. Lifes a drag. the money isn't even all that great. whats8.50 an hour reeeally.
shits just depressing and its not like it gets any better, just more shit piles up and up and up, 20 plus papers to write per class a damn presentation on addictions involving the brain, fuck i can't even get through community college (special ed) straight up bunk..
on a lighter note, i did get engaged, its been fun, no real complaints.
i want to drop off the face of the earth, but i want to land on venus, just check out the weather, see whats its like on a sulfuric acid laiden planet. can you believe that venus may have been as swell as our beloved planet earth. it would be great if civilization originated on venus, took a mulligan and started over again. If anyone could look at us from then they would just say "What a gigantic waste of time, idiots are doing it all over again".
But seriously i thought about the navy (army). who doesn't want to be the next Tom Cruise (before he went crazy) and fly around in sweet planes all day. i figured well hey if i wanted to fly i could join the airforce, but then if i didn't make it to flight school i'd just be another convoy driving target for the "is-lamb-oh" fascist. no thanks i don't need to be the headline of an al-jezeera nightly news show.
so then what else is there to do. nothing but rot in this meaningless job, with no satisfaction, and IDIOT TEENAGE GIRLS who act like five year olds. I hate being grown up, theres just nothing fun anymore. Responsibility is a bitch, no more calling in to work, no more being habitually late, yah im a lazy ass but what the fuck. nothing is easy, community college, video games, hop scotch(sp?).
I also saw this really neat thing called elimination blackjack, why couldn't i rally a bunch of investors and make up some stupid new rules to blackjack. I could see it now, hey i got this great new idea thats going to get us tons of money on the internet. Lets combine blackjack with elements of poker." "Wait a minute, doesn't poker involve some kind of strategy bluffing your opponnents out of a hand, isn't blackjack nearly impossible to predict, don't we as the house win most of the time." "No no no, we just uh, play 30 hands of black jack with umm.. 5 no 9 no 7 people, and every once in a while we'll have to eliminate them!" "Oh i get it. yah it will make milllioons, i love it, lets bottle it up and try to sell it to CBS" "Oh wait it gets better we'll use the secret bet, oooh, yah so no one knows what the other person is betting so the game will become more interesting." dialogue would continue like this, and then on a saturday morning some schlub happens to catch it and think, man that is the stupidest thing i've ever heard of, the good news is there are girls with breast that are most likely fake wearing low cut tops. IM GAME! wait til next week when a bunch of beer swillin guys make it to the table, the only people watching are the idiots who think they can learn something about blackjack by watching idiots on TV.
Seriously life is gay eat a book.
shits just depressing and its not like it gets any better, just more shit piles up and up and up, 20 plus papers to write per class a damn presentation on addictions involving the brain, fuck i can't even get through community college (special ed) straight up bunk..
on a lighter note, i did get engaged, its been fun, no real complaints.
i want to drop off the face of the earth, but i want to land on venus, just check out the weather, see whats its like on a sulfuric acid laiden planet. can you believe that venus may have been as swell as our beloved planet earth. it would be great if civilization originated on venus, took a mulligan and started over again. If anyone could look at us from then they would just say "What a gigantic waste of time, idiots are doing it all over again".
But seriously i thought about the navy (army). who doesn't want to be the next Tom Cruise (before he went crazy) and fly around in sweet planes all day. i figured well hey if i wanted to fly i could join the airforce, but then if i didn't make it to flight school i'd just be another convoy driving target for the "is-lamb-oh" fascist. no thanks i don't need to be the headline of an al-jezeera nightly news show.
so then what else is there to do. nothing but rot in this meaningless job, with no satisfaction, and IDIOT TEENAGE GIRLS who act like five year olds. I hate being grown up, theres just nothing fun anymore. Responsibility is a bitch, no more calling in to work, no more being habitually late, yah im a lazy ass but what the fuck. nothing is easy, community college, video games, hop scotch(sp?).
I also saw this really neat thing called elimination blackjack, why couldn't i rally a bunch of investors and make up some stupid new rules to blackjack. I could see it now, hey i got this great new idea thats going to get us tons of money on the internet. Lets combine blackjack with elements of poker." "Wait a minute, doesn't poker involve some kind of strategy bluffing your opponnents out of a hand, isn't blackjack nearly impossible to predict, don't we as the house win most of the time." "No no no, we just uh, play 30 hands of black jack with umm.. 5 no 9 no 7 people, and every once in a while we'll have to eliminate them!" "Oh i get it. yah it will make milllioons, i love it, lets bottle it up and try to sell it to CBS" "Oh wait it gets better we'll use the secret bet, oooh, yah so no one knows what the other person is betting so the game will become more interesting." dialogue would continue like this, and then on a saturday morning some schlub happens to catch it and think, man that is the stupidest thing i've ever heard of, the good news is there are girls with breast that are most likely fake wearing low cut tops. IM GAME! wait til next week when a bunch of beer swillin guys make it to the table, the only people watching are the idiots who think they can learn something about blackjack by watching idiots on TV.
Seriously life is gay eat a book.