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for starters today was a really dpressing day for me.. i guess with everything thats going through my mind, i just got myself super down now. this is one of the reasons why i hate staying home.. cause i end up thinking and then getting into this mood where i feel lke its the end of the world.. haha it sucks but oh well . but i got out of the house for a bit around 1 in the morning.. strolled wtih gene to ten21, met up w the boys there then split back to erics hotel room where we got kicked out and where phil almost got into a brawl with the stupid security guy.. that guy was being a dickhead, phil shouldve smacked his ass. stupid rent a cop.. haha.. anyways after that we went to the post office cause gene was there by himself skating.. then we kicked it there til like 430.. now im home and i talk to a friend from the states. she heard about what happened from my sister and i cried my heart out tlking to her, telling her everything. and whats going in my head and then after about 30 min. i couldnt take it anymore i had to get off.. and i thought going online would help but i guess not.. i wish i had someone that i could cry too. a girl who knows what im going through or something.. i mean i thank god that i have louie but what i need is a really good friend.. and these are the times that i miss charon...