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I havent updated in so long and the funny thing is that i still have nothing to say. I could go on and on about my days but there is nothing all that exciting and i may just bore you to death. Everything is everything and ive just been taking it one day at a time. Ive been talking to him once more and believe it or not im still happy with just his simple words. Hes afraid of everything but yet shows nothing. hmmmm...weird huh? o-well there is nothing that i can really do about that. So he thinks he messes up all the time but actually it all comes down to him doing nothing at all. Wrong place, wrong time, wrong everything. I guess thats just how it goes. So im sitting here being boared and not doing anything but somehow always finding other things to do. I really want to get out of the house but yet if you think about it there is really no where to go. Everyone is out doing there own thing but always complaining about how bored they are. I miss him terribly and it sucks when you know that there is no time to go back. You cant go back to the past and change it. However thats not what i want to do at all. I just want to go back to the past and stay there forever. Forever seems so long but if you are that happy then what is really wrong with it? Everyone complains about their relationship but yet they still sit there and go looking for them? Ask youself that question the next time that you feel lonely and tell me that that is not true. Everyone has problems you just have to work at them. Even if they seem like they are so uncontrollable that they cant be wroked out at all. Plus everything always happens for a reason, but if your happy then why must everything fuck up all the time. I want to know what that reason is. If boyfriends come and go but friends last forever then how can you start to get close with someone and then your friend ends up leaving? Ever happen to you? Think about it. Maybe it is something that you did or maybe it is jsut their own insecurities. I guess you will never know because they have already gotten up and left you. All i am saying is that i overthink things and that is my problem. Or is it a problem for the fact that i am content in doing that so i have no expectations. If you have no expectations then you will never get hurt. True. But if you never get hurt then you wont notice something real right in front of you.....