yea i guess you could say its been awhile
Well i just have been busy. So many things are starting to look up lately. its beautiful.
1. The boy situation. The boy was luke, and we've been going out for a month now. And so far we have got a great thing going. he makes me very happy. I love it, and i feel very safe and i can trust him. Which is a veeeerry important thing to me. yes yes. my family likes him. My brothers have met him, a couple times lol.
2. Friends...meh..We're having some rocky times, but i do see them all looking for up for the better. its great. Kara and I werent friends for the longest time cuz of some stuff that happened in freshmen year. And now we are actually starting to become actual friends.
A shocker yesterday:: My old best friend Liz moved about four years ago and i havnt heard from her for like 2 years, is moving back. and was up here last night and she called me. wow. it was so crazy. I started crying when my mom told me that she called. So i called her back and we hung out. Just like old times. She's moving to maple grove. Im so happy.
seriously. its amazing i really cant believe how much better everything is becoming. And then that makes me think suddenly...why me? why make everything get better for me? I mean...i have 7 other friends...and i think how they are probably so much more deserving of everything getting better for them, so why me?? i tend to look too much into things and think about things. i totally am appreciating and loving everything thats happening to me now. i mean great boyfriend, getting to be better friends with people, one of my best friends is moving back, i didnt mention this but im going to have a niece. I am just soaking this all in. and I want everything to be just grand for everyone else too. But especially my friends. because they all deserve to be happier with what they have too. But thats just what i thought of...cuz i want so badly for things to be better for them.
lol but also on the downside...my entire break i've basically been sick. I got the flu on like monday and was still feelin it tuesday. and wednesday BAM i've got a cold. what the crap. thats a bunch of bull poo. my poor little nephew max has to get his tonsils and adnoids taken out :(, even worse the doctor heard a 'tick' in his breathing or w/e. and i guess whats going on is his chest is putting a bit of pressure on his heart. so he has to go see a cardiologist near the end of january. poor little guy.
All of this good that has been happening in the past month or so made me think...maybe its a sign that there really is a God or something. I know its a phase that im going through where im unsure of him or whatever. But what if 2005 brings just a whole new meaning to everything for me. I really want to try and make things better for me in this way: get better grades (doing my homework), actually doing my chores when im supposed to, eating healthier, cleaning my room more often and making it stay that way. not staying up until 1 every night during the school week. you know. just stuff like that. I really just want to change a lot. i dunno, i guess you could say i feel inspired or something.
luv kt
1. The boy situation. The boy was luke, and we've been going out for a month now. And so far we have got a great thing going. he makes me very happy. I love it, and i feel very safe and i can trust him. Which is a veeeerry important thing to me. yes yes. my family likes him. My brothers have met him, a couple times lol.
2. Friends...meh..We're having some rocky times, but i do see them all looking for up for the better. its great. Kara and I werent friends for the longest time cuz of some stuff that happened in freshmen year. And now we are actually starting to become actual friends.
A shocker yesterday:: My old best friend Liz moved about four years ago and i havnt heard from her for like 2 years, is moving back. and was up here last night and she called me. wow. it was so crazy. I started crying when my mom told me that she called. So i called her back and we hung out. Just like old times. She's moving to maple grove. Im so happy.
seriously. its amazing i really cant believe how much better everything is becoming. And then that makes me think suddenly...why me? why make everything get better for me? I mean...i have 7 other friends...and i think how they are probably so much more deserving of everything getting better for them, so why me?? i tend to look too much into things and think about things. i totally am appreciating and loving everything thats happening to me now. i mean great boyfriend, getting to be better friends with people, one of my best friends is moving back, i didnt mention this but im going to have a niece. I am just soaking this all in. and I want everything to be just grand for everyone else too. But especially my friends. because they all deserve to be happier with what they have too. But thats just what i thought of...cuz i want so badly for things to be better for them.
lol but also on the downside...my entire break i've basically been sick. I got the flu on like monday and was still feelin it tuesday. and wednesday BAM i've got a cold. what the crap. thats a bunch of bull poo. my poor little nephew max has to get his tonsils and adnoids taken out :(, even worse the doctor heard a 'tick' in his breathing or w/e. and i guess whats going on is his chest is putting a bit of pressure on his heart. so he has to go see a cardiologist near the end of january. poor little guy.
All of this good that has been happening in the past month or so made me think...maybe its a sign that there really is a God or something. I know its a phase that im going through where im unsure of him or whatever. But what if 2005 brings just a whole new meaning to everything for me. I really want to try and make things better for me in this way: get better grades (doing my homework), actually doing my chores when im supposed to, eating healthier, cleaning my room more often and making it stay that way. not staying up until 1 every night during the school week. you know. just stuff like that. I really just want to change a lot. i dunno, i guess you could say i feel inspired or something.
luv kt