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[x_mags_x]

so..i know that i've messed up a lot with everybody. and im really sorry for all of it. i wish i could apologize to each and every one of you for everything ive done bad to you.

i hate not knowing whats going on, whats going to happen, or even how to keep my life under control. i wish i had all my friends, but i feel i complain to much and it keeps them away. i cant help it, u just dont know whats going on in this head and life of mine.

i hate faking this smile, i wish someone knew.

how is it possible to love someone and absolutely despise them at the same time?

all these years i thought it was gonna be good
get to high school, meet everybody make ur best friends
then i got there
things arent the way i thought them to be
people are cruel and dont know that people do have emotions
the same shit happens over and over
the drama never seizes to stop
if only it were grade school when the only thing i could get upset at
was that no one would talk to the quiet girl....

somehow i just think that nothing is ever going to get better for anybody, no matter how hard we try, life just turns around and stabs us in the back.

<3