winters curse
Alright so if youve known me for anywhere over a year, then youre well aware that winter is never fun for me in the emo department. SO this winter..ive devised a plan. See my therapist thinks that im gonna be fine as long as my mom stays calm and all that jazz. I think thats bullshit. so what I intend to do is to do as best I can with my meds by my side, to keep in all the unusual sadness and depression that clouds my mind. I'll try to shove it all to the back of my head and ignore it. Then the inevitable will happen. I'll have a breakdown. Now ive done that before..and it wasnt fun..but it was only about 4 or so hours of breakage and I'm still here so its okay. See I figure that its very drawn out my depression is, and so therefore it causes everyone a lot of anoyance and perhaps pain. I hope im not sounding vain to think that perhaps I have the ability to effect people in such a way. nevertheless, I see the downfalls of this. There are two that actually concern me, the size of the breakdown, and my inability to control when adn where it will take place. Now im a senseable person even when my emotions are involved so i can probably keep myself together until im at an appropriate place, but the size..will be a matter of its own.
id like to point out how gay it is that i was sitting here long enough dwelling on this that I made an LJ post. BAH.
tis the season bitch
id like to point out how gay it is that i was sitting here long enough dwelling on this that I made an LJ post. BAH.
tis the season bitch