fuck this

[x_lost_cause_xx]

i cant stand my parents anymore. its not like im ungrateful or anything, its just. i dont know.

dear mom and dad:

i try and do everything that i can to make you guys happy but it never fails that its not good enough. nothing is ever good enough for you guys. like this past week i stayed home with my brother because dad had his stupid bat

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[forgottnsoldier]

Yeah... sarcasm from parents is hard at times... It pisses you off and makes you feel like shit! Then when you try to get away from that feeling, they yell at you for either ignoring them or talking back. It's a lot of bullshit. Then when you speak your mind the tiniest bit, they flip out, ground you, etc... It's a lot of bullshit, and I really hate the feeling when my parents make my life seem like a joke. Then less than 5 minutes later, they come up and ask what's wrong and why I am mad at them. The same jokes that they use to use hurt anymore, and irritate us more. And since I'm the youngest of 3 I have a lot inside that just built up over the years. And now I can just feel all of my hatred for the comments I brushed aside and hid away for all of my life coming out and showing their rage. With some of the things we are going through in our daily lives, it just enhances the hurtfulness of each word that comes out of family members' mouths. Even if they are just trying to have fun. I just hate being the scape-goat of the entire family... It's been years that I took it. It's always been my fault, especially today. I swear I was never angrier than I was today. When I was blamed for not having the insurance card renewed... (which caused me to be unable to take my drivers' test) Like you said, there are new responsibilities that we are getting, and with them we should get priveleges. And all I feel building up is the responsibility stack with the privelege pile getting smaller. I just wish that our parents learn their lessons... cause sooner or later. It's going to get worse if we don't fix it now. And I can feel myself splitting from the family... I know I shouldn't be, but I can't resist it if it means that I'll be getting away from this shit.
~Noah

P.S. Nikki, you're awesome and I know you'll be able to get through this. We're all here for you like you were all there for me! :)