2nd entry...wee...
it sucks when your mom listens to someone else instead of you. it sucks when your mother doesn't believe you, but they will believe someone else. what i mean is i told my mom that the computer has a virus in it, that is slowly using up all of the computer's memory space, and there are about 5,000 or more little viruses in the computer. nothing will work. what does she do? her "friend" Barry comes over (i REALLY hate Barry.) and he gets on the computer, deletes almost ALL of my stuff (which pissed me off) and then deletes AIM and says that it's not a good messenger anyways (right now, AIM seems to be the only messenger that works for me.) and then finally he leaves and tells me how to use the computer. i'm sorry, but he is VERY stupid, annoying, and i'm much smarter than him with how to work a computer. his computer has had to go to a shop about 2-3 times. my computer, none. blah...he's stupid. plus i was talking to my mom about it and shit, and she says this: "Barry said there was over 6,000 viruses in the computer, and he said that it was working so much faster now, and if we just keep it clean and now download anything onto it, then the computer should last a long time. maybe then, i won't have to be you a laptop." i rolled my eyes and said this to her: "mom, i told you a million times, 'the computer has over 5,000 viruses and it has a huge virus in it that is eating away at the memory space on the computer' and i would like a laptop, so that i can have a computer. oh yeah...speaking of my own computer, you gave me that computer at the beginning of summer, and said it was mine, and i could do whatever i want with it. how come you let Barry near my computer? why do you keep doing this stuff? first you gave away my bike for FREE to a little kid who couldn't even get on it. now you are taking over my computer? what's next? you gonna rent my room out?" yeah...i'm extremely pissed off with my mom, if you haven't noticed already. sometimes, she just drives me insane. scratch that. she always drives me insane. *sighs* i wish i knew what to do. speaking of what to do...i have a major problem. my boyfriend of 2 and a half years, and who i love VERY much, well...umm...i'm not positve if i love love him. i think my feelings for him, kind of evolved to brother/sister love. i dunno anymore. but i need to figure out all of this soon. *sighs* i want to cut so badly...i actually NEED to cut. but...i made a promise to my closest friends, that i would try to stop. *sighs* well...i'm gonna go. it's 4 o'clock in the morning, and i need to get some sleep. later