the return.
so i havent written in a whiiiile.
my comp has been fuct and i just recently got it back.
i dont even know what ive been up to the past few weeks. they've been kinda emotional though.
had one weekend with a tad too much partying. friday tims going away shindig at velvet and then sat pattys bday at the bovine. saw so many ppl i hadnt in months. jay sean nigel paulina marta scott erik and a bunch of others. it was crazy. until i got sick.
some sweet bo dinners with andy and java house soups with jesse. food pretty much makes my life.
been working all week, sketching out on things i promised to do, and then staying home on my few nites off.
im just sick of always being the instigator of things. it seems people don't really care to see me unless they want something or its convenient for them. i cant remember the last time someone asked me to do something. kinda sad. i need to feel wanted.
ive also been contemplating a few things lately and its friggen breaking me. some things id like to change, and do, and say, but it almost feels pointless or too late. pretty dissatisfied with myself.
i hate the fakeness of everything and everyone. and i cant even detach myself from it. ugh.
and how fucken annoying is it when u say something to someone online and they completely disregard it and move onto something they wanna share. i know its electronical, but it still feels so rude and careless. damn u.
p.s. i dont recommend icing sugar or maple syrup and water mixes for chasers. unless ur REALLY desperate.
my comp has been fuct and i just recently got it back.
i dont even know what ive been up to the past few weeks. they've been kinda emotional though.
had one weekend with a tad too much partying. friday tims going away shindig at velvet and then sat pattys bday at the bovine. saw so many ppl i hadnt in months. jay sean nigel paulina marta scott erik and a bunch of others. it was crazy. until i got sick.
some sweet bo dinners with andy and java house soups with jesse. food pretty much makes my life.
been working all week, sketching out on things i promised to do, and then staying home on my few nites off.
im just sick of always being the instigator of things. it seems people don't really care to see me unless they want something or its convenient for them. i cant remember the last time someone asked me to do something. kinda sad. i need to feel wanted.
ive also been contemplating a few things lately and its friggen breaking me. some things id like to change, and do, and say, but it almost feels pointless or too late. pretty dissatisfied with myself.
i hate the fakeness of everything and everyone. and i cant even detach myself from it. ugh.
and how fucken annoying is it when u say something to someone online and they completely disregard it and move onto something they wanna share. i know its electronical, but it still feels so rude and careless. damn u.
p.s. i dont recommend icing sugar or maple syrup and water mixes for chasers. unless ur REALLY desperate.