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Yesterday morning I was supposed to have a liver transplant.
My dad was supposed to be the donor and we went through months of preparation both physically and emotionally.
My dad and I were both excited.
I'm laying in the pre-op room waiting for the okay to go in for surgery, there are IVs and shit in me and I'm ready to go.
My dad has been in there for about an hour and I'm waiting.
The doctor comes out and tells me they have to cancel the transplant.
With all the tests they do they get as close as they can, but it really all comes down to one final test that they do once the donor is cut open.
My dad was in the 5% that didn't get past this test.
He had too many branches coming off of the main artery in his liver, and it would be too risky to operate.
Needless to say it was crushing. It felt like every bone in my body had been broken and everything around me was spinning.
After the initial hurt of it I started crying, and didn't stop all day. I felt so numb, didn't want to talk to or look at anyone. I just wanted to see my dad. He feels like he let me down, but he's still my hero. I wish he knew how much it still means to me. But it's really hard seeing him in the hospital and me being fine.
2008 is the year of let downs. Not just for me. Stay inside until 2009.
My dad was supposed to be the donor and we went through months of preparation both physically and emotionally.
My dad and I were both excited.
I'm laying in the pre-op room waiting for the okay to go in for surgery, there are IVs and shit in me and I'm ready to go.
My dad has been in there for about an hour and I'm waiting.
The doctor comes out and tells me they have to cancel the transplant.
With all the tests they do they get as close as they can, but it really all comes down to one final test that they do once the donor is cut open.
My dad was in the 5% that didn't get past this test.
He had too many branches coming off of the main artery in his liver, and it would be too risky to operate.
Needless to say it was crushing. It felt like every bone in my body had been broken and everything around me was spinning.
After the initial hurt of it I started crying, and didn't stop all day. I felt so numb, didn't want to talk to or look at anyone. I just wanted to see my dad. He feels like he let me down, but he's still my hero. I wish he knew how much it still means to me. But it's really hard seeing him in the hospital and me being fine.
2008 is the year of let downs. Not just for me. Stay inside until 2009.