Life.
So this would be my new journal. Yet, still a work in progress as to making it look how I would like...
I figured with a new life about to start I might as well start completly over and let go of the past for now. Although somethings are pretty hard to just forgive and forget.
I guess I could start out with a quick summary of my "life"....I am seventeen and expecting my first child this Tuesday ( June 20th 2006 ). I am currently engaged to the most amazing guy ever. he just got out of school this past week and started his new job at National Coney Island. We have deffintally had our stuggles in the past year but it has all been worth it. I really dont think he knows just how much it is that I love him. I would give my life for him in a heartbeat if it ment he would be completly happy in his life. Even though there has been times I feel like giving up on everything, he is one of the very few things I have to look forward to. I could never imagine going though all this with any other guy.
This was not exactly a planned pregnancy but I could not have planned things out any better. I am completly nervous to be a mommy seeing as first of all, kids hate me. They do. HATE me...not dislike me, hate me. Another reason is I have no idea how to take care of a baby. But I guess I will learn fast enough : )
We are still trying to get settled down as a family right now looking for a place to live and all. My parents are in the middle of a "should we get divorced" situatuion right now which I think is going pretty negitivly. This is probally the most selfish thing I will ever say in my life but ... at least we would be able to get the house. Heh....My mom feels as if she has no one anymore with my father cheating on her with his ex best friends wife and all. And then I have my father telling me how she is leaving ME. Hmm...thats always the best right? But oh well, such is life.
Sometimes things just get so mixed around and it seems like you life is taking its toll on you. I think having this baby will deffintally turn the negitive in my life into positives. Abortion//adoption was never once a thought in eaither of our minds. Even though we are very young to be having a child, as cheesy as it might sound....everything happens for a reason and there must be a reason why I am having a baby. We are both giving up alot of things right now but I know this will all pay off in the long run.
I guess that is about it for now. Not much has been going on these past couple days. Execpt for the fact that the baby is stuck! He wont come out = ( Haha...
Peace.
I figured with a new life about to start I might as well start completly over and let go of the past for now. Although somethings are pretty hard to just forgive and forget.
I guess I could start out with a quick summary of my "life"....I am seventeen and expecting my first child this Tuesday ( June 20th 2006 ). I am currently engaged to the most amazing guy ever. he just got out of school this past week and started his new job at National Coney Island. We have deffintally had our stuggles in the past year but it has all been worth it. I really dont think he knows just how much it is that I love him. I would give my life for him in a heartbeat if it ment he would be completly happy in his life. Even though there has been times I feel like giving up on everything, he is one of the very few things I have to look forward to. I could never imagine going though all this with any other guy.
This was not exactly a planned pregnancy but I could not have planned things out any better. I am completly nervous to be a mommy seeing as first of all, kids hate me. They do. HATE me...not dislike me, hate me. Another reason is I have no idea how to take care of a baby. But I guess I will learn fast enough : )
We are still trying to get settled down as a family right now looking for a place to live and all. My parents are in the middle of a "should we get divorced" situatuion right now which I think is going pretty negitivly. This is probally the most selfish thing I will ever say in my life but ... at least we would be able to get the house. Heh....My mom feels as if she has no one anymore with my father cheating on her with his ex best friends wife and all. And then I have my father telling me how she is leaving ME. Hmm...thats always the best right? But oh well, such is life.
Sometimes things just get so mixed around and it seems like you life is taking its toll on you. I think having this baby will deffintally turn the negitive in my life into positives. Abortion//adoption was never once a thought in eaither of our minds. Even though we are very young to be having a child, as cheesy as it might sound....everything happens for a reason and there must be a reason why I am having a baby. We are both giving up alot of things right now but I know this will all pay off in the long run.
I guess that is about it for now. Not much has been going on these past couple days. Execpt for the fact that the baby is stuck! He wont come out = ( Haha...
Peace.