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I havent updated in forever so this entry will probably be pretty long. Things here lately have been kind of weird, but I'm happy that it hasnt bothered as badly as I think it would have maybe last year. It's no secret that me and Amanda arent as close as we use to be, and that use to bother me pretty bad. But now its like, I've realized that people come and go but that friends are and should be forever. And I've been having a pretty good time hanging out by myself. I've actually learned alot more about myself during those times when I didnt have anyone to hang out with or talk to. And I've made new friends, people who I actually would have never of thought I had anything in common with. So I think that in all its maybe been a good thing for me to lose a friend or to. I've learned that I dont HAVE to have someone with me to have fun, or to make fun. I'm completely capable of getting up with people myself and having fun, or doing something alone and having a good time. For example last week I wanted to drive to Dothan and buy a couple school clothes and my mom said that I could but that she couldnt go with me. So I was kind of bummed out b/c I didnt want to go by myself, and I did try and get Kayla to go with me, but then she couldnt go so I said to myself, "Self, we're going to go shopping together and have loads of fun." And you know what? I did. All by myself and me.
Now it wouldnt be a real "Kendra" journal entry with out the mention of a guy, or even several. Lol, so here this goes. I had decided after I broke up with Brandon that I was going to be single for a while. Just sort of lay back and not worry about who likes me and if I like him and all that other drama which I seem to always get tangled up in. But over the summer when I made a new friend I had no idea who her cousin was until we started hanging out at each others houses and he showed up and come to find out he lived with her. Needless to say I started liking him. But I didnt tell my friend because I didnt want her to think that was the only reason I came over to her house. Well come to find out he was asking her about me a lot and when they took a family trip over the summer to South Carolina, I was all he talked about. So anyways...she kept trying to get us to go out but I still wasnt really wanting another relationship and he wasnt either. So we kept our distances other than talking and picking on each other. Meanwhile, stupid me starts liking him more and more. SO now it comes to the part where it gets sad, he had gotten a little upset with me over something, but then Monday morning I went by there house to pick up Jessica and he wasnt mad. I was really really really happy and told him bye and that I'd see him later. That'd be great except for the fact that he got ARRESTED the next day and I had to be the one to tell my friend about it at school. So he's getting sent off for about 3 weeks and me and her just cried together. After his 3 weeks are up we dont know whats going to happen. So hopefully he'll get to come home and not get sent off for months at a time again....