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On my way home from my grandma's house yesterday I stoppped by Chad's like I told him I would but he wasnt there. He had to go with his dad to the county office for something or the other. Tracey was telling me all about Cody and how he was doing. I feel bad for him. But I left a note in Chad's truck and told Trace to tell him it was in there. I hope it explained everything that I needed to say. I told him basically that yes I did like him a lot, but that I wasnt ready to lose Brandon for me when I knew how much me and Brandon liked each other. Along with some other things. I hope he understands and isnt pissed. I've found out this year that I dont have any real friends. I use to, but over this school year things have changed a lot. I still want to go to a new school. To get away from everyone here, but it my mom isnt letting it happen. She knows that our high school is the most "prestiguous" from around here, or at least as good as one can be in a place like Holmes County. So she wants me to "continue my education in a place where I'll have a higher expectancy of success". I'd like to think that I'd be more successful in a place where I was happy. That isnt here. I'm not sure if it's my personality that drives people away, or if it's just that everyone already has their own clicks. Brandon is coming over tomorrow and I'll get to see him for an hour at the most if we're lucky because he has to be home early. And Saturday night we're going out to the movies and out to eat. I want to go see Mean Girls or that other movie that starts with a "p". He said we could go watch whatever I want but I want him to have fun too. We'll decide later. I think we're gonna eat at the Golden Corral or something.