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I have NO idea what 2 do anymore,
i just can not take this i try 2 do better but i always screw up
i have no idea how 2 make this boy happy everytime i see him my whole world changes it's like i have no prob's in the world i can be having the worse day ever and then this boy comes 2 my house and makes it all better by just smiling at me~! but no i always end up screwing it up and crying myself 2 sleep that night ALWAYS it's like i'm not good enough 4 this person i try just 2 be friends with this boy but i always end up having such strong feelings 4 him i cant fight it! i mean i have NEVER cared for someone like i do this boy just hugging him makes everything in my world right again then stupid me always has something 2 say or do 2 make him mad and leave without even talking 2 me just seeing him walk out my door that mad made me brake down and cry I mea by the way he talked 2 me the other night seemed like he cared the same for me 2! but i guess i can just fuck things up sooo bad that i dont even matter anymore i'v called his phone about 29 times as of right now and i am gonna keep calling till i can talk 2 him maybe he will read this and know how i really feel that i care for him more then any other guy i have ever ben with even tho me and him r only friends 2 me it's more then that...ijust dont know how 2 put it but i really hope he reads this and calls me and just tells me whats going on!
Lindsey
--LiNZYLu-- (12:27 AM) :
gah Chris10 my heart is broken =(
Kristen Hammonds (12:27 AM) :
I'm sorry LenZ I'll buy you a bandaid
--LiNZYLu-- (12:27 AM) :
thats soo sweet lol
Kristen Hammonds (12:28 AM) :
Ill make sure its pretty too
--LiNZYLu-- (12:28 AM) :
=( when he was up here we was being stupid and i cut my finger and i put and "strawberry shortcake" bandaid on and he made fun of me so what kind 2 u gonna get me?
Kristen Hammonds (12:29 AM) :
haha
Kristen Hammonds (12:29 AM) :
Umm .. a purple one
--LiNZYLu-- (12:29 AM) :
i LOVE purple!
Kristen Hammonds (12:29 AM) :
AH ME TOO
Kristen Hammonds (12:29 AM) :
ah not realy but it sounded good
--LiNZYLu-- (12:30 AM) :
yea true i like pink myself