i just wanted to talk to josh..
this one's for josh-
it's almost 2months since you've been gone baby, and to be honest it seems like just the other day we were laying in bed watching american idol & talking to my dad about beer.. not a day goes by where i don't think about you, something comes up & it just makes me smile- the other day me& erin were at hooters and we couldn't stop talking about you, about all the fun we had.. we went to get our palms read after and the lady told me that my important initials were J&S [ joshua steven .. ] and i almost cried, but i tried to keep my composure and let her keep talking, she told erin that she had recently lost somebody close to her.. evreything that happens reminds me of you! everytime american idol comes on i'm so upset that i have to watch it by myself.. it's amazing to see how many people miss you! i lay in bed at night, and i hope you hear me talking to you, because i do it all the time- you're still one of the few people i trust, nothing will ever change that- to this day i tell you everything that happens in my life, and to this day you listen to me, i miss you so much josh, i just got finished e*mailing mommy, i had to make sure her and your dad & Chrissy were all doing okay, i went & saw her at work the other day, i'm sure she told you .. i gave her the pictures i had of you, she told me i remind her of you because of the dark hair and blue eyes.. baby you'd be proud of me, i brought my grades up and i'm starting to pay attention in school, i know you'd be proud.. i cut my hair =\ you'd probably be mad at me it's really short- you couldn't really run your fingers through it anymore, i know- i know i'm "bitchmade" right baby? i still call your phone almost everynight and pray that i'll hear your voice one more time, whenever my phone rings i cross my fingers and hope that its you calling me- it never is .. everyone but me is doing okay i think though, ian especially- hes having fun, him & erin are still together theyre so cute you'd be happy for them .. who else? i know your parents are still going crazy .. even though you never liked Michael he's doing okay actually, Gary too.. I talked to Katie the other day, she reminded me of when i fell in her bathtub and you were cracking up at me& erin.. John F misses you too, well all do josh ..god definitely made a mistake by taking you from us, i miss your smile, i found the post-it i made for you the other day- made me cry .. i love you josh, i'll try to go out& talk to you on Monday but my moms not here so it's gunna be hard, it doesnt mean i love you any less though, you'll ALWAYS be my best friend, even god can't take that away from me baby<33 i love you..
it's almost 2months since you've been gone baby, and to be honest it seems like just the other day we were laying in bed watching american idol & talking to my dad about beer.. not a day goes by where i don't think about you, something comes up & it just makes me smile- the other day me& erin were at hooters and we couldn't stop talking about you, about all the fun we had.. we went to get our palms read after and the lady told me that my important initials were J&S [ joshua steven .. ] and i almost cried, but i tried to keep my composure and let her keep talking, she told erin that she had recently lost somebody close to her.. evreything that happens reminds me of you! everytime american idol comes on i'm so upset that i have to watch it by myself.. it's amazing to see how many people miss you! i lay in bed at night, and i hope you hear me talking to you, because i do it all the time- you're still one of the few people i trust, nothing will ever change that- to this day i tell you everything that happens in my life, and to this day you listen to me, i miss you so much josh, i just got finished e*mailing mommy, i had to make sure her and your dad & Chrissy were all doing okay, i went & saw her at work the other day, i'm sure she told you .. i gave her the pictures i had of you, she told me i remind her of you because of the dark hair and blue eyes.. baby you'd be proud of me, i brought my grades up and i'm starting to pay attention in school, i know you'd be proud.. i cut my hair =\ you'd probably be mad at me it's really short- you couldn't really run your fingers through it anymore, i know- i know i'm "bitchmade" right baby? i still call your phone almost everynight and pray that i'll hear your voice one more time, whenever my phone rings i cross my fingers and hope that its you calling me- it never is .. everyone but me is doing okay i think though, ian especially- hes having fun, him & erin are still together theyre so cute you'd be happy for them .. who else? i know your parents are still going crazy .. even though you never liked Michael he's doing okay actually, Gary too.. I talked to Katie the other day, she reminded me of when i fell in her bathtub and you were cracking up at me& erin.. John F misses you too, well all do josh ..god definitely made a mistake by taking you from us, i miss your smile, i found the post-it i made for you the other day- made me cry .. i love you josh, i'll try to go out& talk to you on Monday but my moms not here so it's gunna be hard, it doesnt mean i love you any less though, you'll ALWAYS be my best friend, even god can't take that away from me baby<33 i love you..