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[x_lilsunshine]

have you ever had that feeling, where you don't want to get out of bed? you don't want to move, you don't want to breathe because you miss them .. you miss them so much you can't function the way you use to ..

i miss him, it's unbelievable- i'm trying to be strong for him, i know that's what he would want .. i'm trying to be srong for ian [ his best friend ] but it's too hard

i didn't get the chance to make enough memories with him, if only i could have spent a few more hours with him, in his arms ..

ian told me he was "devistated he couldnt be with me" i just broke down in my drive way, & started to cry ..

delicious gerl (1:29:02 PM): ryyannn
-(1:29:36 PM): dayna
delicious gerl (1:29:49 PM): remember that time i told you i met a kid you knew & we were talking?
-(1:30:04 PM): yeh, u gunna tell me who it is now
delicious gerl (1:30:11 PM): yeah...
delicious gerl (1:30:14 PM): who it was
-(1:30:27 PM): ok so who was it
delicious gerl (1:30:29 PM): josh
-(1:30:47 PM): arsenau ?
delicious gerl (1:30:51 PM): yeah
-(1:30:57 PM): oh my god
delicious gerl (1:31:17 PM): yeah
-(1:31:46 PM): so does that mean ur the last person he kissed
delicious gerl (1:31:52 PM): yeah
delicious gerl (1:32:05 PM): the night before he got in the accident
-(1:32:06 PM): omg im sorry dayna

i miss him, i miss him so much it hurts my body to think about him

the viewing is tomorrow, & the funeral is monday.. i have to go & support his family and ian .. i have to be stronger then i know i am

it's my moms birthday, happy birthday ..