Tegan and Sara
"All work and no play will make you a very lonely girl. Remember; work to live, dont live to work."
A friend of mine said this to me late last night. We were talking about my work schedule, and how its becoming almost impossible to have a social life around it. I am lonely. I don't know the difference between work and home anymore. I feel like work IS my home. Thats just rediculous.
Don't get me wrong, I love my job. Everyone I work with, I absolutely adore. They're my family. My friends. My inspiration at times. I couldn't live without them anymore. And I hate that. Work is my life. And its not working to live. Its living to work.
For once I feel like I'm good at something. I feel like I'm needed. I am one of 4 people that came from the free standing beauty store into our new combined store, and I am the one in the leadership position. I love that Veronika *my manager*, is giving me this opportunity. I have been the one, and only one, working in beauty from 10am-7pm, Monday-Thursday making every segment and every plan we need to make for the day. I am the one making that money. I am the one there making sales. And I love that feeling. And I love the recognition I get for it.
Veronika asked me to be a beauty lead. I'm excited. I'm scared. I want it. I can't wait.
I just feel like theres this void inside of me. Where a life should be. Fun. Laughing. Friends. I feel like I'm lacking all the things an 18 year old should be experiencing. I'm not going to school. I'm not going to partys. Its summer, and I haven't gone to the beach, not once, just to lay out all day. It makes me sad. I really feel like I have no life outside of work. Its just such a disappointing feeling.
I want to go out. I want to be FREE. I want to sleep all day. I want to go out all night. I want to go back to school. I want to leave for days and not come home. Not HAVE TO be home EVERY night because I have work the next morning.
Today is my first day off in the past two weeks. I don't know what to do with myself. I don't know who to call. I want to be at work. Its my comfort zone. I just don't know.
This blog was completely pointless. I just had to say it, I guess.
Errr.
Here's some Tegan and Sara. I can't live without this song. Its my love song.
I Know I Know I know
From hundreds of miles you cry like a baby
You plead with me, shout, scream
Tell me I'm staying
I know, I know, I know
I'm still your love
Back from the last place that I wanted to fake
You laugh with me, shout, scream
Now tell me you're staying
I know, I know, I know
You're still my love
The same as I love you
You'll always love me too
This love isn't good unless
It's me and you
Box after box and you're still by my side
The weather is changing
And breaking my stride
I know, I know, I know
It's just this day
House after house, just like car after car
You see club after club
And it all seems so far
I know, I know, I know
What else are we here for?
The same as I love you
You'll always love me too
This love isn't good unless
It's me and you
Stick your hands inside of my pockets
Keep them warm while I'm still here
Tell them this love hasn't changed me
Hasn't changed me at all
Last night I was writing about you
I know my screaming and shouting won't keep you
I know, I know, I know
You're still my love
I wake up to the sound of you working
You're one room right over
Stressing and loving me
I know, I know, I know
Be still my love
The same as I love you
You'll always love me too
This love isn't good unless
It's me and you
Stick your hands inside of my pockets
Keep them warm while I'm still here
Tell them this love hasn't changed me
Hasn't changed me at all
Stick your heart inside of my chest
Keep it warm here while we rest
Tell them this love hasn't changed me
Hasn't changed me at all
The same as I love you
You'll always love me too
This love isn't good unless
It's me and you
The same as I love you
You'll always love me too
This love isn't good unless
It's me and you
A friend of mine said this to me late last night. We were talking about my work schedule, and how its becoming almost impossible to have a social life around it. I am lonely. I don't know the difference between work and home anymore. I feel like work IS my home. Thats just rediculous.
Don't get me wrong, I love my job. Everyone I work with, I absolutely adore. They're my family. My friends. My inspiration at times. I couldn't live without them anymore. And I hate that. Work is my life. And its not working to live. Its living to work.
For once I feel like I'm good at something. I feel like I'm needed. I am one of 4 people that came from the free standing beauty store into our new combined store, and I am the one in the leadership position. I love that Veronika *my manager*, is giving me this opportunity. I have been the one, and only one, working in beauty from 10am-7pm, Monday-Thursday making every segment and every plan we need to make for the day. I am the one making that money. I am the one there making sales. And I love that feeling. And I love the recognition I get for it.
Veronika asked me to be a beauty lead. I'm excited. I'm scared. I want it. I can't wait.
I just feel like theres this void inside of me. Where a life should be. Fun. Laughing. Friends. I feel like I'm lacking all the things an 18 year old should be experiencing. I'm not going to school. I'm not going to partys. Its summer, and I haven't gone to the beach, not once, just to lay out all day. It makes me sad. I really feel like I have no life outside of work. Its just such a disappointing feeling.
I want to go out. I want to be FREE. I want to sleep all day. I want to go out all night. I want to go back to school. I want to leave for days and not come home. Not HAVE TO be home EVERY night because I have work the next morning.
Today is my first day off in the past two weeks. I don't know what to do with myself. I don't know who to call. I want to be at work. Its my comfort zone. I just don't know.
This blog was completely pointless. I just had to say it, I guess.
Errr.
Here's some Tegan and Sara. I can't live without this song. Its my love song.
I Know I Know I know
From hundreds of miles you cry like a baby
You plead with me, shout, scream
Tell me I'm staying
I know, I know, I know
I'm still your love
Back from the last place that I wanted to fake
You laugh with me, shout, scream
Now tell me you're staying
I know, I know, I know
You're still my love
The same as I love you
You'll always love me too
This love isn't good unless
It's me and you
Box after box and you're still by my side
The weather is changing
And breaking my stride
I know, I know, I know
It's just this day
House after house, just like car after car
You see club after club
And it all seems so far
I know, I know, I know
What else are we here for?
The same as I love you
You'll always love me too
This love isn't good unless
It's me and you
Stick your hands inside of my pockets
Keep them warm while I'm still here
Tell them this love hasn't changed me
Hasn't changed me at all
Last night I was writing about you
I know my screaming and shouting won't keep you
I know, I know, I know
You're still my love
I wake up to the sound of you working
You're one room right over
Stressing and loving me
I know, I know, I know
Be still my love
The same as I love you
You'll always love me too
This love isn't good unless
It's me and you
Stick your hands inside of my pockets
Keep them warm while I'm still here
Tell them this love hasn't changed me
Hasn't changed me at all
Stick your heart inside of my chest
Keep it warm here while we rest
Tell them this love hasn't changed me
Hasn't changed me at all
The same as I love you
You'll always love me too
This love isn't good unless
It's me and you
The same as I love you
You'll always love me too
This love isn't good unless
It's me and you