i've been trying ive been trying to drink away the part of the day that i can not sleep away...
uh kinda confused. not really but just a little bit.
new things have come in to play. new feelings and new thoughts ive never had. why should i do all the work? its not my job to carry this relationship. i've always thought that the little things do matter. and its not all the guys responsibility to shoulder the burden of making a relationship work. it takes two. looking back on past relationships, including the past i have invested in this one, the little things made me feel special. just the way a girl would look across a room at me and just smile at me and even though there would be other people around us, it would make me feel like we were the only ones there. the way a girl would just rub my arm or my neck or play with my hands while lying down watching tv or watching a movie. and the way a girl would just rush me up to her room and close the door and we would seclude ourselves for hours at a time. i've been thinking more about these pasts then this present. and i want that all in one person. but i think my time is coming up soon hopefully.
i've kinda, sorta developed this new policy for me. no smoking weed until after 3 in the afternoon, except for weekends and special occasions. i love smoking. smoking in the afternoon gives me time to reflect on everything. i've decided not to smoke right before going to bed. its just a waste. you dont get to enjoy your high at all cause youre asleep. hopefully i'll keep these going on for awhile.
i also got a new job. laying down carpet. again. ha.
aight thats an update for ya.
peace
new things have come in to play. new feelings and new thoughts ive never had. why should i do all the work? its not my job to carry this relationship. i've always thought that the little things do matter. and its not all the guys responsibility to shoulder the burden of making a relationship work. it takes two. looking back on past relationships, including the past i have invested in this one, the little things made me feel special. just the way a girl would look across a room at me and just smile at me and even though there would be other people around us, it would make me feel like we were the only ones there. the way a girl would just rub my arm or my neck or play with my hands while lying down watching tv or watching a movie. and the way a girl would just rush me up to her room and close the door and we would seclude ourselves for hours at a time. i've been thinking more about these pasts then this present. and i want that all in one person. but i think my time is coming up soon hopefully.
i've kinda, sorta developed this new policy for me. no smoking weed until after 3 in the afternoon, except for weekends and special occasions. i love smoking. smoking in the afternoon gives me time to reflect on everything. i've decided not to smoke right before going to bed. its just a waste. you dont get to enjoy your high at all cause youre asleep. hopefully i'll keep these going on for awhile.
i also got a new job. laying down carpet. again. ha.
aight thats an update for ya.
peace