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My whole life, I've known my weaknesses. People told me. But I've given into all of them.
They've all fucked me up, just like I knew they would, but my walk was not in an open field. It was a single line.
I can't believe I've finally fell into this hole.
To explain. I could travel across the world and see so much. But across the universe, I can see that I've gone absolutely nowhere, and seen nothing.
Infinite is infinite, and unfathomable. Just as finite is finite.
So in this endless sphere, we are nothing. A blur on a time-line that doesn't exist. Our purpose in life has no purpose itself. It's a false sense and all it does is keeps us alive.
I'm not being negative. I'm not depressed. But waking up to this thought every morning is starting defeat me.
We can choose to be happy but pain is inevitable.
The thought of dying is scaring me for the first time in my life. But I want to know what happens. I kind of want to experience that pure nothingness or whether it's being apart of everything. But everything and nothing create this unexplainable paradox.
It's this paradox that is leaving me so hollow.
They've all fucked me up, just like I knew they would, but my walk was not in an open field. It was a single line.
I can't believe I've finally fell into this hole.
To explain. I could travel across the world and see so much. But across the universe, I can see that I've gone absolutely nowhere, and seen nothing.
Infinite is infinite, and unfathomable. Just as finite is finite.
So in this endless sphere, we are nothing. A blur on a time-line that doesn't exist. Our purpose in life has no purpose itself. It's a false sense and all it does is keeps us alive.
I'm not being negative. I'm not depressed. But waking up to this thought every morning is starting defeat me.
We can choose to be happy but pain is inevitable.
The thought of dying is scaring me for the first time in my life. But I want to know what happens. I kind of want to experience that pure nothingness or whether it's being apart of everything. But everything and nothing create this unexplainable paradox.
It's this paradox that is leaving me so hollow.