Men make me sick...
When will he ask me out? i don't understand men. he tells me he really really likes me and then he can't even make a phone call anymore. i don't really fell like competing against all the girls that are based around him. he told me he'd pay for a ticket for me to come to virginia beach and he'd even pay for the hotel cuz i'm not allowed to sleep in the marines barracks. but everytime i talk to him, he's with another girl-i know i shouldn't be jealous but i know they think he's hot, cuz he's incredible. as of now, military men can go to hell. so far i've realized something about them...they're all kind and respectful, disciplined, strong, and fucking sexy but they're such fucking whores and they'll screw anything that walks. it's like i'm only there for when he really needs me. i'm his comfort zone and that's all. he promised we'd go downtown chicago when he comes back home. maybe he's waiting till he comes back to ask me out. god i just don't know. i wrote him a really long email just pouring everything out to him and i called him when i got home from school and i signed online. he was online but he said he didn't feel like writing back. this was like an uber-important-i'm-crying-everything-out-to-you-kiss-me email. -- and all he says is he doesn't feel like writing back. i know i'm probably over acting, being overdramatic, but this boy is beautiful and i just want him so bad.
