Sep 16, 2004 20:22
JEFF
You know, like, like, I would always think, uh, you know, what if
I make the wrong move? But maybe there isn't any right move. You
know? I mean, look at us. You know, we all dress the same, we all
talk the same, we all fuck the same, we all watch the same TV.
Nobody's really different, even if they think they're different.
"Oh, boy, look at my tattoo, you know?" And see, that's what
makes me freak. Because I can do anything I want, as long as I
don't care about the result.
Jeff begins to remove articles of his clothing.
JEFF (CONT'D)
Anything is possible. It is night on planet earth and I'm alive.
And someday I'll be dead. Someday I'll just be bones in a box,
but right now, I', not. And anything is possible. And that's why
I can go to New York with Sooze because each moment can just be
what it is. There's no failure, there's no mistake. I just, I
just go there and live there and what happens, happens. And so,
right now I'm getting naked and I'm not afraid. You know? I
don't, I don't need money, man. I don't, I don't even need, I
don't even need a future. I, I could knock out all of my teeth
with a hammer. So what?! You know, I could poke my eyes out. I'd
still be alive, you know? At least I'd know that I was doing
something real for two or three seconds, you know? It's all about
feat and I'm not afraid anymore, man. Fuck it! Fuck fear!