Ohhhh, Jamboooo
at 2 p.m. tomorrow, 2 hours before Ryan Hare will be officially drunk, an adventure begins. Jeffrey, Stephen, Ryan and myself with the traveling aids of William and Paul are going to Boston. We will be spending all day friday and saturday recording 4 songs at the Big D and the Kids Table rehearsal space with the goof ball bassist himself. I can not be more excited or nervous at the same time. Im stoked because the new song sounds pretty good in practice and i wanna hear it for real, and because we are finally doing something. Spending a little bit of money to become friends with a very good person to be friends with. i just want him to like us so bad. I wanna not play 5 shows in rochester over the summer, and have only our friends like us. I wanna drive places for shows and make fun of bill in more places while ending every night with scategories. I just want to play as many shows as possible and meet people and go places. I know we are not the coolest guys, definetly not very attractive, we are no Endive, don't have a good "genre", our songs are not catchy enough, our singer is not very good, we are kind of lame live, but i enjoy myself so much. I could not imagine life without practice or shows, and not writing shitty songs. I want people to like us, its unlikely but its worth trying. I want to finish school the just play music. That would be the best life imagineable. I go to sleep every night just wishing that the right person will hear us and be like shit thats not bad. But i won't ever stop trying. As hard as it is living across the country, and not being very creative or genious or anything, I'm gonna keep working on it. I will put more into this thing than anyone else because i wanna go somewhere. Maybe if i keep doing stuff like setting this up, everyone else will be as motivated. Who knows, but this weekend is going to be amazing. If i see a certain someone on good terms and no awkwardness beyond what i normally bring to the table it will be 500 times better. I just want to see that smile, even if its just as an old friend, making that smile is the most missed thing at Fredonia. Seriously, Im an asshole i know, but i miss that, a lot. Here's to bringing in the end of my 20th year of life with an amazing adventure.